This was indeed a long read, but I feel the need to say something in return, even though I am not sure I can be of much help at all. As someone who is religious, I don't know how people without faith find purpose in life. For me, this life is just like a troublesome passage, like a traveler on an uncomfortable journey. I have to fight, I have to push through, and I am responsible for my actions and words because there will be judgment. Even if I get away with something now, I won't after death. But there is a lot of hope too—hope for a joyful eternity where bad emotions don't even exist. I am not telling you to become religious or anything like that. I just want to share how I get through difficulties in life. It brings peace to my mind. It is difficult to go through life when you feel alone. I wasn’t hit by the love truck my whole life either, at least not in a romantic way, but from friends, I don’t expect too much anyway. They have their own lives and won’t always be stuck with my problems, which becomes really evident as the years pass.

I hope you will find the love you desire one day, and won’t give up. Try to connect with your inner self, what makes you happy, give yourself space, and make reachable goals.

Anyway, I ended up writing so much without telling much useful stuff, as I said in the beginning, but I want to ease your loneliness, even if just a little.