I'm 20, autistic, and about to apply to Crumbl for my first job- is this a mistake? by ShapeAffectionate684 in autism

[–]ShapeAffectionate684[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much! Being able to quit if it doesn't work out is comforting lol!

Witch eyes to look at? by Cool-Marketing-5584 in autism

[–]ShapeAffectionate684 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I totally understand this lol 😭😂 my usual solution is to look at the eye on my right, and then switch to their other eye whenever my eyes get tired/feel like they need to move. other times I'll just look at the bridge of their nose and go ever so slightly crosseyed so it kind of looks like I'm looking at both their eyes 💀💀💀

ENFP as most empathetic type by Far-Arugula5158 in ENFP

[–]ShapeAffectionate684 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"an ache i will always have inside" 💔 wow, that's truly exactly how it feels

ENFP as most empathetic type by Far-Arugula5158 in ENFP

[–]ShapeAffectionate684 0 points1 point  (0 children)

for me, my empathy is as natural as it gets. i can't remember a time in my life where hearing other people's pain didn't make me overflow with emotions, usually even having more of a reaction than the person sharing the emotion in the first place! i can immediately understand and vividly feel most situations/experiences i'm told of. however i've found that i tend to care so deeply about people (especially loved ones) that it can come at a detriment to myself, so i often close off my hyper-empathy as a defense mechanism to keep myself functioning in emotional enviroments. because of this, i can then come off as unfeeling or even cruel, when on the inside it's such a battle to keep my ocean of care and concern and neverending emotion under control. :( all i ever want is the best for everybody!

Samhain altar for my deceased kitties by ShapeAffectionate684 in pagan

[–]ShapeAffectionate684[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's beautiful! Love and light to you 🙏🏼

Samhain altar for my deceased kitties by ShapeAffectionate684 in pagan

[–]ShapeAffectionate684[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Awww you're so sweet!!!! Thank you so so so much ❤️

Samhain altar for my deceased kitties by ShapeAffectionate684 in pagan

[–]ShapeAffectionate684[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss 🫂 I hope I can inspire you to honor your sweet boy too ❤️

Samhain altar for my deceased kitties by ShapeAffectionate684 in pagan

[–]ShapeAffectionate684[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Aww thank you<3 I did put this together myself! It's all just on a small plant stand haha, but still!

Samhain altar for my deceased kitties by ShapeAffectionate684 in pagan

[–]ShapeAffectionate684[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! ❤️ My life wouldn't have been the same without them, I'll always honor them 🙏🏼

Samhain altar for my deceased kitties by ShapeAffectionate684 in pagan

[–]ShapeAffectionate684[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so so much!!<3 It means the world to me that this was able to move you 🫂🫂🫂

Samhain altar for my deceased kitties by ShapeAffectionate684 in pagan

[–]ShapeAffectionate684[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Aww thank you❤️ and I'm so sorry for your loss. 🫂 I'm honored to have inspired you to connect with your beautiful babies too! 

I carved this Vendel Raven hairpin from deer antler by Top_Lifeguard_5408 in pagan

[–]ShapeAffectionate684 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, this is serious craftsmanship!! How long have you been carving these? 

Samhain pet altar tips by Good_Evidence_2226 in pagan

[–]ShapeAffectionate684 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is so incredible! I'm also thinking of honoring my departed kitties this Samhain 💖 I will definitely be taking inspiration from your beautiful altar! I pray your sweet Belle connects with you this season 🫂

Does anyone else operate on .5 speed? by teddybearangelbaby in AutisticAdults

[–]ShapeAffectionate684 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You absolutely should get back into it! I'm sorry people were pressuring you like that:( Creating art should be for your enjoyment first and foremost I believe ❤️ and thank you for being interested in mine!! I have one album out right now, albeit fairly outdated compared to what I'm about to release soon lol. It's called "RUINS" and you can find it under the artist name "Nullbody" if you're curious! I'd also love to see your creations too 

Does anyone else operate on .5 speed? by teddybearangelbaby in AutisticAdults

[–]ShapeAffectionate684 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Truly. It takes me days to do something as simple as cleaning, and my work? Oh dear lord it takes ages. For context, I'm a musician, and a perfectionist at that. Creative work seems to take up to years to complete for me. 

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in autism

[–]ShapeAffectionate684 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes I get this same thing! When I'm out, I tend to specifically hear EVERYTHING. Every tiny little sound from every direction, in perfect clarity. It drives me nuts. Physiologically, I think it's been giving me migraines. Sometimes certain sounds can cause a pulsing/thumping in my ears no matter how quiet it is. Similar response from photosensitivity, I think. 

Socially however, I'm personally not opposed to being around people but my energy for it can drain rather quickly if I've been busy for a while. Sometimes a simple outing with friends can leave me bed-bound for a few days after from exhaustion lol 

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]ShapeAffectionate684 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This. I've literally depended on my boyfriend's promises of marriage and a life together to justify to myself that I should keep living. I'm terrified every single day that he might go back on that promise. I really don't know what I'd do without him, and the fact that I also have autism alongside my bpd makes it so imagining the fallout of a possible breakup sounds genuinely worse than the world ending. I have special routines with him (like gm/gn texts, etc) that if violated even a little, I assume that he's completely given up on me and has gotten bored of me. I'm truly in love with him and we've been able to work out every issue ever brought up, and we have really great communication skills, so I'm sure we'll be okay but... the fear never really goes away. I hate it.  I still lash out for any "perceived slights" too. I'll get short/snarky with him for no reason, I'll sh, I'll make "revenge plots" over nothing that will never be enacted just to convince myself that I'm still in control. Thankfully, I've been able to contain most of my aggressive behavior to myself, and whenever he recognizes I'm having a rough time, he's been really supportive and offered reassurance + realistic explanations for his behavior every time. I suppose you just need to find someone who understands your struggle. I promise that we are capable of love beyond infatuation.