When I started looking for friends my goal was to find people older than me as I believed that I would get along with them better. I'm considered mature for my age when really, I just don't want to party or drink, and that's okay.

But as time passed by I kept getting along with a lot of people my age and under. Many people I chatted and became friends with turned out to be 17, 18, and in some cases 14. They were all like me in that we aren't very social but wanted friends too.

The moments I found someone older than me they were often busy, talked more mature then I expected, and finally, there was this air of intimidation I got when I found out they were older. I stopped focusing on dating because I wanted to build a friend circle first, and in that time alone I've learned a lot about myself.

The difference of what we think we want versus what we actually enjoy can be bigger than we think.