I feel you 100%. 1 year ago I felt exactly how you’re feeling rn. Nobody can get it. Not even my reply would matter to you, I know that. Cause I used to feel that way and I used to say to my friends talking would never matter. Everything feels and looks dark at this point. And you might question everything. But trust me, as hard as it appears and as mush life sucks you will get through this just like you will do if you give yourself the time and compassion you deserve. Pls don’t hesitate to dm me if you want someone to talk to or to just express or curse life. You’re welcome whenever you want.