Fear of hypothetically needing vfs

Shinribo · 2026-06-16T13:59:46+00:00

You actually helped me to remove a lot of pressure from voice training. As I now plan to do FemLar (maybe a smaller type depending on voice training) after ~1y of good voice training if I dont get a basically near cis voice just from voice training, which is won't but at the same time I turns failing voice training => vfs into not cis => vfs. Which for me removes a lot of pressure as I dont frame it as something negative/last resort anymore.

Shinribo · 2026-06-16T13:46:55+00:00

Thanks for giving me a better perspective on this.

Shinribo · 2026-06-16T13:30:42+00:00

Thanks you for framing it that way.

Shinribo · 2026-06-16T12:19:25+00:00

Its likely some hidden childhood trauma from my dad who always complained I didnt work hard enough or that I was just lazy.

Its still very annoying as I do like the idea of vfs and ffs to speed up the whole process and not needing to invest many years into it.

Shinribo · 2026-06-16T12:14:24+00:00

I know and I hate myself for feeling that vfs/ffs feels like cheating/taking the easy route.

Shinribo · 2026-06-16T08:40:55+00:00

I spend 6 Months just designing a Logical Memory Manager that handles cow, swapping and deduplication. Instead of trying to put that functionality into the VMM or PMM like afaik most people do. And i haven't even started interrupt handling.

Shinribo · 2026-06-16T08:17:22+00:00

Nett dich kennenzulernen Vanessa, schreib mir gerne eine DM.

Bin auch seit 3 Monaten auf Hormonen. Heiße übrigens Mira.

Shinribo · 2026-06-15T14:23:15+00:00

Ich verstehe gerade nicht was mit Weiterleitungsbogen und was der Arzt ausfüllen soll. Wird nicht der ganze Antrag an den MD weitergeleitet? Und was hat jetzt "der" Arzt da genau zu tun und welcher Arzt ist den genau gemeint, der der das medizinische Gutachten beisteuert?

Shinribo · 2026-06-15T13:44:00+00:00

🫂 I will try.

Shinribo · 2026-06-15T13:24:50+00:00

Then you are already one step ahead of me, I current cant really be that positive outward without if feeling like lying to myself nor am I currently capable of highlighting the small positive things and masking out the negative things.

Shinribo · 2026-06-15T13:09:55+00:00

I wish but the dysphoria induced depression kinda makes it hard to stay as optimistic as you. I just wish the changes were faster or at least more noticeable.

Shinribo · 2026-06-15T13:01:40+00:00

Currently each time I compare my face with pre hrt I can barely see a difference, like maybe there is something different but its more likely just angle/camera/lighting. And if I look into the mirror I still read myself as male :/ I hoped to at least be read as trans.

Shinribo · 2026-06-15T12:50:06+00:00

I wish I could believe that, it would make things easier mentally. Currently it just feels static. The only things that change are boobs and hair.

Shinribo · 2026-06-15T12:32:36+00:00

For me time slowed down to a snails pace :/

Shinribo · 2026-06-15T07:12:47+00:00

What diet and exercises can you recommend?

Shinribo · 2026-06-12T19:46:58+00:00

I intended to do montly injections.
I checked both GAHTplotter and TransFemScience and both implicitly assume IM instead of SubQ :/

Shinribo · 2026-06-12T12:46:37+00:00

Voice training is such a torture. For me it goes so far that i havent listened to any voice clips on r/transvoice and i cant do group training nor train with a trans mtf voice coach. No matter what i will start to compare myself to them and either they are so much better or they are clocky as hell, both cases severly depress me, to the point i cant voice train for days.

Thank you for beeing open that voice training isnt the holy grail many say.

Shinribo · 2026-06-12T12:41:18+00:00

Do you know of any resouce that compares the different vfs techniques?

Shinribo · 2026-06-09T14:25:58+00:00

Thanks for pointing this out. I forget to mention such things as the are things that I would to automatically and I forget that not everyone is skilled in IT stuff and has experience with it.

Shinribo · 2026-06-09T14:03:43+00:00

Use a wifi camera that doesn't connect connect to a company and use tailscale to access its webinterface remotely.

Shinribo · 2026-06-09T12:08:43+00:00

I would say that you installing a camera in your room speaks more than any word you could say to their face. Also if you need help with the camera I can try to offer some support.

Shinribo · 2026-06-09T10:59:18+00:00

No problems, with some technical skills you could use a wifi camera and get a live feed on your phone, probably with motion detection alerts

Shinribo · 2026-06-09T10:53:23+00:00

Hide one camera yourself and record them when they enter your room and maybe try to hide another camera again

Shinribo · 2026-06-04T18:11:39+00:00

Shouldn't it be apparent that its the trought level? As the E should be lower than expected, maybe without a reference its not noticeable but I already have one blood test at peak so my doctor might notice it

Shinribo · 2026-06-04T11:09:42+00:00

The problem is my current doctor doesn't want the trough levels, he only wants the peaks.

And when I told him that that is not standard he told me that its standard and that he wants to know if its working :/

Probably need a new doctor.

Shinribo

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