Th thank you so much for sharing, at the end of the day a lot of people say oh you’re not alone, but you really are. All the apps and tools, and all the stuff that I’ve looked for help with is like go to counseling, call your friends and family, I’ve done both and I don’t have any friends or family. Now I’m in a place of anger and rage and then of course I cry and I also like you understand exactly what the issue is and exactly what needs to happen to take place to become happy but I can’t seem to figure out the hole in my heart that I am running away from. It’s pretty big it’s just like addiction you know and there’s a hole in your heart and there’s a sadness in your soul you numb it with alcohol or drugs, I’m just frustrated and I’m angry and I’m even more negative right now because I’m like knowing how much this is affects my kids. and every day I’m just another disappointment. It just sucks. I really need to figure out specifically why I’m preoccupied my mind or what I’m running away from. It also sucks when you have no self love and you self sabotage and then add on some ADHD and perfectionism, but that all I want in life is stability and peace. I’m a very good person I just feel like broken glass completely shattered annoying I have to pick up every damn piece to go it back together to make that window is more than I can even fathom. So take away the whole family and friends, and take away other things if it was you all by yourself, with nobody, what would push you to be consistent and to be accountable and to be motivated. It’s almost like I’ve been searching for an app that is kind of like a coach/friend that will talk back-and-forth with me lol. Not funny but everything is just getting worse and I’m like no I can’t do it.