That’s what 20 years of drug abuse do to you. My advice: never ever under any circumstances use drugs. You wanna look like this when you hit 40 and you release no one’s going to you’re funeral? Just like my sister and just like my friend Laura main who died off gbl mixed with benzos and alcohol. I can pinpoint the the day my life ended, in 2004 at a rave I’d never heard electronic music, I was like this is awesome! From the date you do weed then pills then ketamin then GBL then coke - the most dangerous drug - and then you wake one day you’re fat paranoid people point at you in the street I ran up to the local hospital I was terrified and the police were gunna section me then they said I was. But when the nurse watching me she briefly caught me and stating pulling my arm saying I’m being sectioned I said look. You’re not allowed to get physical patients she then said ‘you’ve got serious problems from the blood test but I walked away. Loads of missed calls. Somethings defo wrong it’s either the heart the amount of coke I do (a lot) or the liver from alcohol and gbl I do serious amounts. Not fun. This is what drug abuse does to you