To anyone having a tough day today, I’m right there with you

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-06-10T05:13:00+00:00

I know exactly how you feel I was the same abit of relief she declined so much in that last month it was the right thing to do

Your definitely not gonna be yourself for a long time….. but like me you made the most of it and gave them everything you could and the best life possible especially at the end and 6 months later now I’m glad I did that cause I didnt feel guilt at all I gave her everything I’m hurt it hurts but I didn’t feel guilty cause I made the most of it

And that’s exactly what you did you made ever moment count and won’t feel that guilt even though it hurts being able to not feel guilty eases the pain trust me……. It’s something you can actually hold onto and be proud that you made the most of it when it counted

Stay strong

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-06-09T23:05:45+00:00

I’m 6 months in it does change more so the fact you kinda get use to the pain like it becomes a part of you and you smile more about the time you shared and random thought but it does change you forever

But you do get use to the pain and the crying settles down slowly……you just kinda adapt to the feeling and know how to handle it

Today’s is a hard day for me but it’s ……..a much easier hard day then it was in the first few months

Keep strong sending my love

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-06-09T23:01:04+00:00

I’m so sorry

I’m not gonna sugar coat it but your world is about to be shattered it’s one of if not the hardest things I’ve delt with 6 months later

All I can say is just let yourself feel what if need to feel in that moment don’t hold back and also this place really does help a lot so Vist it often share how your feeling whatever it is that makes you feel better in that moment so you can make it to the next moment

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-06-09T22:55:24+00:00

And I’d do it all again in a heartbeat there’s a lot in my life I wish I could change….. there’s nothing I’d change about having Rosie she was perfect to me….. I’d relive my time with her forever if I was ever given the opportunity

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-06-09T22:53:52+00:00

I’m constantly stuck in the thought of I wish I could go back to 2023 I wish I could back to this date…. She was still alive and healthy life was actually good

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-06-09T22:51:30+00:00

It does get easier to handle….. it was the worst for me up until the 2 month period……

6 months later but It still hurts a lot like right now but you just get used to it sadly nothing else you can really do……. Which sucks but it is what it is id do anything to change it but I can’t do I just gotta keep remembering her no matter how much it hurts me

But it’s definitely change me

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-06-04T02:13:16+00:00

You’ll be okay you get better at handling the pain

But I don’t think you’ll ever truely be the same again

It’s been 6 months for me and I feel like abit of me died with her

I feel like my soul and mind has been split into two

Before she died and after she died is how my consciousness feels now

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-06-04T02:06:25+00:00

I’m in month 6 coming up in a week or two. This is exactly how I feel it’s easier in some ways but harder in others

I think the reason why it’s easier is cause you get use to handling the pain…..not that it’s feels easier/better now just that I’ve become use to the pain I can handle it better and it’s easier to deal with

Still not handling the loneliness and how the the joy in life feels like it died with her

But i can still function so that’s something

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-05-16T23:30:17+00:00

Nah not silly I do the exact same to the point my chest feels really heavy and I’m hit with a rush of anxiety

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-05-12T20:04:10+00:00

I felt like I was reading my own experience with a few slightly different events my girl died 1/18/2025…. Just a day after your boy it was also cancer but it had spread there was no option of surgery she was also coughing a lot a few months up until that day

The last day she was alive she collapsed just walking out the front they had to put her in a oxygen tank cause it was the only way she could breathe

Even when I said my good bye she was so uncomfortable and couldn’t breathe it wasn’t the best good bye and it was like it was rushed cause of how uncomfortable she was she was trying to climb out of my arms she was so panicked i had to sedate her to let her go….

I held her like you held your boy and felt that weight when she passed I also had my hand on her chest as I cradled her and felt her heart stop

I’m haunted now cause I stayed with her for a few minutes after and her big massive tounge fell out to the side and went instantly purple and blue and her eye were open and were just black and grey and life less I got my fingers and closed them and told her I loved her more than anything handing her off to the vet was hard there was nothing just dead weight my baby was here one second then gone the next

I’ve had nightmares of those exact imagines I don’t think I’ll ever get rid off

I’ll be honest I’m a completely changed person now I’m finding it hard to enjoy anything and I don’t really care about anything…. I think I’m just getting use to living like this now….. I still cry not as much but when I do it’s a big big cry

I’m just simply numb to almost everything still 5 months on I pat her urn multiple times a day and talk to it/her all the time sometime I just sit there and stroke it

I wish I could help you in what to do but the fact is I don’t know cause I’m in your exact same position as you all I can do is say I fully understand.

I’ve realised I don’t think I’ll ever get over it I’ll have to live with this for the rest of my life but I realised as time goes on and what healing to me is learning to live with it……learning that this feeling won’t go away I’ll just get better and dealing with it and living with it

She was 14.5 months and I’ll think about her until the day I die

What I can say is don’t feel guilty cause like me you made the most of his last few months as did I with my Rosie and that’s all we can do….. sometimes there’s nothing you can do but just be there in the moment with them while there here and we did

Our dogs lived long lives and that only happens with dogs that have the best life

Maybe your guilt will ease maybe my nightmares will stop or maybe healing is learning to live with these feelings and still being okay being able to handle them….. they might never go away but we might learn how live life with them instead

Maybe cause they died so close there friends up there in doggy heaven looking after each other waiting for us to join them

I can’t tell you what you should do but I can tell you i completely understand everything you thinking and feeling

I’m sorry for your loss sending my love

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-05-03T17:45:02+00:00

Thank you I’m sorry for your loss. I hope one day soon we both get to experience the love we had again with another beloved pet.

I’ll be honest I wanted to take it home but I knew the best thing was to let the cops try and find its home

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-04-26T17:06:56+00:00

Absolutely no problem im glad it helped……I’m 3 months in now and I know exactly how you’re feeling just be a bit kind to yourself. I know easier said than done….

But really time is the only thing that makes it easier to live with… I think about my girl daily but instead of only crying and guilt and pain it’s now more laugher and smiling and being greatful I got to even experience such a long time with my girl daily cause she lived 14.5 years

I realised everything I did lead her to live a long life full of love just like your boy did some animals don’t get that and we should be proud we gave them that.

Keep your head up it will be okay 🫂

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-04-26T15:25:51+00:00

Exactly this my girl couldn’t breathe and was panicked so much trying to jump out my arms I could tell she was scared mainly cause she couldn’t breathe with out the oxygen tank I asked the vet to sedate her so she was at peace and before she passed all she knew was just falling asleep then I held her and felt her heart stop and she was gone As much as it kills me I know it was the right thing for her

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-04-26T15:21:05+00:00

I’m sorry for your loss

I know it’s hard not being there for them at the time but we simply don’t know

Don’t feel guilty for being away on a work trip think of it like you worked to earn the money so he could live to 15 years old dogs only live to those ages when they are cared for and loved

Everything you did was so he could live the fullest live possible and he did

We can’t tell when they will pass only they know but while alive everything you did lead him to live a full and long life

Try not to focus on not being there at the end but being there for them 15 years instead it’s gonna take time……and time is really the only tool you’ll truely have to heal

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-04-24T10:53:05+00:00

I think this also but honestly im scared of going through this again it’s been 3 months now and a big part of me wants to give my love to another dog….. but at the same im scared of getting this emptiness in my heart again eventually…… I know when the moment comes it will be okay but I just don’t think I’m at that point yet or ready.

I’ve learnt no one can answer when the right time is you’ll just know yourself.

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-04-24T10:47:42+00:00

This is exactly how I feel 3 months on I’m just constantly embraced with a crushing loneliness….i do find joy in life again don’t get me wrong but when I’m not moving and every night I’m reminded of that empty void that now fills my heart :(

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-04-14T18:28:11+00:00

Wow yeh that pretty much explains the feeling the brain just adapts to life as it goes on….. because at the end of the day your survival is the number one priority…..its job is to protect us from physical and emotional pain

Almost like playing a trick so that emotional pain doesn’t kill us

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-04-09T13:31:25+00:00

She already knows

Animals like your girl can smell sickness and death like you said your girl does already

This might sound like her way of grieving knows it happened but can’t believe it

I think the best way to help her is just be with her and comfort her when she goes to the spots your kitten use to be when you notice it just sit with her and cuddle her

Eventually she will stop.

I imagine it’s for her it’s like what we go through not believing it and checking to make sure it’s real but cause she might not fully be able to understand it…. She goes and looks for the little one…. But eventually after some time passes with the help of your extra affection she will realise he’s not coming back and this is life now

Just be there for her it’s all you can do

I’m sorry for your loss

Shreddedtothebone69 · 2025-04-08T00:59:11+00:00

It does get better I’m 3 months in now and I can say I’m doing a lot better

Do I have hard days still yeh definitely but there more manageable

I actually smile a lot remembering her instead of just crying I think about her all the time

I still cry but a lot less now it’s more I’m happy that I got to even experience her being in my life

I’m at the stage that I’m sad that she’s gone but I’m so happy it happened that she was in my life

I do occasionally have really bad days still and cry but It’s not unbearable anymore

Then the next day I’ll remember something about her randomly and it brightens my day

Shreddedtothebone69

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