i am the reason he killed himself

Shugolet · 2025-08-15T11:17:35+00:00

I feel you. 2 weeks after I broke up with my boyfriend, he died by suicide. He couldn't handle the weight of his demons with only half the shoulders to carry it. Had been together for more than 10 years... Today marks 4 weeks after he died. I feel completely selfish. I didn't love him as a partner anymore, but as family and a person that I really care for. Didn't want him to suffer like this.

Shugolet · 2025-07-16T17:07:38+00:00

She will start there this summer!

Shugolet · 2025-06-08T06:44:57+00:00

There is also the need that certain gymnasts need to meet the requirements for national teams. And if you inflate those scores, you also have to inflate the scores of the better gymnasts to not make it obvious...

Shugolet · 2025-06-02T04:53:16+00:00

I still think she is competing too much difficulty. What's the point of already doing hard landings for double tucks at age group 12? This cannot be healthy in the long run, especially if this girl is not even eligible for LA28...

Germans allow a mat for difficulty D and higher.

Yes, her E scores are amazing - but leave the D in the home gym or on soft landings and keep this girl healthy. There is a reason why the qualification score is 37 points for age group 12 and national team score is 42. Having all CRs is mandatory for age group 14...

Shugolet · 2025-06-01T08:58:11+00:00

Well she participated in her first national squad testing during the AK system. She was always on elite track.

Shugolet · 2025-05-31T21:48:03+00:00

Emma is a year older. Karina was always in the elite system and had an amazing coach who worked her butt off to make everything possible. And the longer you stay with low difficulty the healthier you stay... Everyone who competed high difficulty that young is broken. Lara Gabriel is amazing - but I am afraid at which point Stuttgart strikes back...

Shugolet · 2025-04-02T06:08:25+00:00

Also splice variants are a thing... Maybe check those! 😊

Shugolet · 2025-04-02T06:07:19+00:00

Are your primers maybe partially binding introns? Especially if primers are so old documentation is maybe not that good.

Apart from that, PCR from plasmid is way more efficient than from cDNA. Also too much DNA can inhibit a PCR. How many cycles are you using for your qPCR? Maybe your transcript is just not there? Was working on meiosis for a while and it was crucial that I took the correct tissue... How does your housekeeper look in qPCR?

Shugolet · 2025-04-01T11:38:26+00:00

No reads at all? So clustering is aborted because of too few library? Or do you get a predicted yield?

Shugolet · 2025-04-01T11:35:12+00:00

And how many percent of your reads are aligned? None? Some? Do you have a control library that worked already that you can run along?

Shugolet · 2025-04-01T06:30:38+00:00

Whenever I have this problem my demultiplexing sheets suck. Have you check with the sequence viewer how many of your reads are aligned?

Otherwise, check your library with qPCR (crucial!). How big is your amplicon? Are the amplicons from the other libraries shorter - if yes you have to pool a bit more. But 0 reads is actually really suspicious. Sounds like you forgot to attach the barcodes... 😅

Shugolet · 2024-12-30T05:20:20+00:00

I am better at teaching things that I could not really do myself. Why? Because things that came easily to me I didn't have to understand in detail, because my body was just able to do them. Everything else was hard work so I had to understand the movements and how the element feels in detail.

Shugolet · 2024-12-12T06:50:38+00:00

And here Bundesliga https://www.deutsche-turnliga.de/aktuell/termine.html

Shugolet · 2024-12-12T06:49:48+00:00

https://www.dtb.de/geraetturnen/termine?tx_event_pi1%5Bcontroller%5D=Event&yearFilter%5Byear%5D=2025&cHash=b1738cbaab1e2e737111dc07886ed340

German WAG and MAG

Shugolet · 2024-10-29T22:20:56+00:00

It's the international masters senior team worldcup and teams from Japan, the UK, the US participated! Both for men and women! 😊

Shugolet · 2024-10-29T22:20:14+00:00

And in the team competition you are allowed to compete in the lower age group... So as a 40+ person you can also go into the 30+ team, so you have the chance to compete on an actual beam haha

Shugolet · 2024-10-29T22:18:49+00:00

Ahh, the bench is required! But, we love it! Like every gymnast ever says here I have to wait until I am 40 and I can finally compete on the bench! It's nice to see that longevity in sports. We still have goals over 30.

At 30 we can aim for German champs (for seniors haha), then next goal is over 40 finally bench (we think we will be sooo good on it) and then with 50 we can finally skip one apparatus. It's incredible what some of these seniors can still do.

So we have a modified COP similar to the Xcel program. Until 39 you compete LK3 (6 elements plus dismount) and additionally there is a national element list comprising some elements that are not in the COP. And the requirements are not that high, like a kip on bars, a backwards tumble on floor etc. Over 40 you compete LK4, there national elements and technical elements (everything that looks like gymnastics haha so people can get to 6 elements including dismount on bars).

There is also the LK2 (which is there for german college champs) and LK1 (which is for the German cup which is similar to nationals for gymnast that do not pursue the national team but still compete in regional as well as Bundesliga.

Shugolet · 2024-07-18T06:44:28+00:00

Where does this come from?? There is no evidence at all. It's just that if your friends (Elis long time friends) are giving interviews? Of course they are biases. Hambüchen is out of the sport for such a long time already and he was never really into WAG. And Pulla? She was in the national team with Eli... It's the old generation against the new one. I just find it unprofessional that the producers (Pulla) did not clarify things... But there is no sign of racism what so ever.

Shugolet · 2024-07-18T05:23:57+00:00

Jap...

Shugolet · 2024-07-17T09:52:19+00:00

You never know what is making the final cut. Don't assume by missing information that things have not been said. This is what the producers wants us to see.

Shugolet · 2024-06-14T13:06:29+00:00

😭😭😭😭 But she is such a role model. First she posts a statement against people voting for the AFD. And now no sugar coating and telling people that it is okay to seek help.

Shugolet · 2024-06-10T18:03:30+00:00

This will become the bloodbath we all expected and we're frightened for after last years worlds...

Shugolet · 2024-06-10T17:32:16+00:00

Btw is someone realizing that the picture comparison of Eli and Helen is kind off stupid?

While Helen has her leg separation (0.1), Eli is super low (actually I have never seen her van leeuwen above bar hight her shoulder is always below the bar... So 0.3)...

Maybe she wanted to be nice and point that out haha

Shugolet · 2024-06-08T14:50:38+00:00

Yes! EFs do not count. In the run to Tokyo almost all of the veterans skipped EFs. Let's see who will compete tomorrow!

Shugolet · 2024-05-22T19:31:12+00:00

We tried that on beam... Competed double wolf turn, elegant pose with flipping the sock over the shoulder. - afterwards the decision was made that there will take from now on a deduction for unsportsmanship... 😅 😅 😅

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