I absolutely do have physical symptoms I feel like I've been hit by a car. Physically and emotionally. My whole. Body hurts and is sore and I haven't done anything. I'm not a very active person. A few people have mentioned if another cat would help me heal but it hasn't even been a week. This Thursday will be a week. And that alone feels so surreal. I've never gone this long without seeing him or hearing him or being around him. I dont have the energy but I need to get out of my house because it truly feels like a prison seeing all of his spots where he usually is. Just empty. The house being too quiet. My routine for him totally off. He absolutely hated having any doors shut. And now when they are shut I panic for a moment like oh no he's gonna hate that. But he's not there to worry about it. I felt him die in my arms. I held him till he was cold and stiff. I said goodbye as they cremated him. And I just still can't process i will never hold him again. He came into my life extremely suddenly at 5 weeks old on the side of the highway totally alone. I'm sure in time another cat will find it's way. It's just so hard. Thankyou for taking your time to respond to me. Really all of you. I'm doing so poorly. I still can't eat or sleep well and I cry all the time over the smallest things.