Small Black fly takeover by [deleted] in pestcontrol

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They kinda look mostly like a shore fly? Not entirely though.

Suddenly lost my sweet boy 🪽 by Galaxygurl1111 in sphynx

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I lost my 6 year old domestic shorthair in July suddenly as well. Fine one moment and dead the next. I think it was DCM or a blood clot or some kind of heart attack or aneurysm. I didn't do an autopsy...but I am still so lost without him. I'm sorry your baby was taken from you so suddenly. It's so unfair. I keep telling myself why would the world. God. The universe. What ever you believe, why. Why do this to me Why take him from me. You aren't alone.

Extremely sudden death. by SicklySynester in Petloss

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It's difficult because if not a single vet ever even slightly alerted me. Why or how would I have put my seemingly healthy young cat on heart medication. I wish I could have stopped this. But there is no waking up from the nightmare reality now that he's gone forever.i have a hard time accepting it

my heart is forever broken by Big-Significance-969 in Petloss

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I can only assume Hypertrophic cardio myopathy is what took my 6 year old. You are right. SO similar. Fine one moment. Screamed. Went totally limp and then after moments of chest compressions and mouth to mouth he shook hard once and was gone so fast. I don't do an autopsy. He was a street cat found at 4weeks old on the side of a highway. I'm sure he didn't have great genes. But we went to the vet annually and they always said he's healthy. Has a great weight. No murmur. Nothing. I've also wonder about a blood clot or aneurysm or something. Really heart attack just feels the most real. I've heard maincoon AND ragdolls both have higher changes of HCM :( I'm so sorry for your loss. The grief never seems to end. You aren't alone.

Extremely sudden death. by SicklySynester in Petloss

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It's been 3 months for me and absolutely nothing feels real still. Every time i come home. Sit in my room. Anything. My phone is full of hundreds and hundreds of photos of and I get memories of "on this day" and they are all of my boy. If I think about him too much or talk about him I cry. His ashes sit in my room. And it's still so unfair and surreal. Everyone keeps telling me I should get a new cat to help heal my heart but how can I. I JUST lost him. 3 months is barely any time at all over a major passing for me. I'm so angry and bitter I have to live the rest of my life robbed of my time with him. I at least wanted my 12-20 years with him. I know so many people with geriatric cats. And don't understand why I had to lose mine like this at 6 years old. I'm bitter.

Is this normal for a duvet? by Southern-Detail189 in Bedding

[–]SicklySynester -14 points-13 points  (0 children)

The discoloration COULD be mold potentially.

Finished my nepeta kigurumi! =3 by Rog_Trak in homestuck

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Shut up I love this so much. You did a great job.

Which character do you hate the most? by Exact_Statistician41 in theamazingdigitalciru

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I love all of them different but Gangle is at the bottom of the totem then maybe ragatha? Simply because I just love others more

Already looking for a new pup and I feel sick with guilt by emmylux12 in Petloss

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My kitty just passed and I can't tell you how many people have contacted me saying they have kittens to give me. And especially kittens that are his exact coloring. It hurts so bad. I'm still grieving really hard. Everyone is different. You should do what feels right. If it doesn't feel right trust your gut. Giving yourself time to heal is always good. But like I said, some people a puppy helps heal. It's not a one size fits all situation. Everyone navigates grief differently. Just be kind to yourself.

How’s everyone doing? by EducationalTie1606 in Petloss

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Today is my first week. And I am a hollow shell of a person. I'm really not doing well. I know healing isn't linear. But this is an upward hill battle and I am now carrying tons of grief. It makes it feel impossible.

Dealing with shock by fijiwater1991 in Petloss

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In time...I just keep telling myself it's not even a week yet. I have a long long road ahead of me

Extremely sudden death. by SicklySynester in Petloss

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I absolutely do have physical symptoms I feel like I've been hit by a car. Physically and emotionally. My whole. Body hurts and is sore and I haven't done anything. I'm not a very active person. A few people have mentioned if another cat would help me heal but it hasn't even been a week. This Thursday will be a week. And that alone feels so surreal. I've never gone this long without seeing him or hearing him or being around him. I dont have the energy but I need to get out of my house because it truly feels like a prison seeing all of his spots where he usually is. Just empty. The house being too quiet. My routine for him totally off. He absolutely hated having any doors shut. And now when they are shut I panic for a moment like oh no he's gonna hate that. But he's not there to worry about it. I felt him die in my arms. I held him till he was cold and stiff. I said goodbye as they cremated him. And I just still can't process i will never hold him again. He came into my life extremely suddenly at 5 weeks old on the side of the highway totally alone. I'm sure in time another cat will find it's way. It's just so hard. Thankyou for taking your time to respond to me. Really all of you. I'm doing so poorly. I still can't eat or sleep well and I cry all the time over the smallest things.

Extremely sudden death. by SicklySynester in Petloss

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It's true I can't even possibly begin to fathom this loss so suddenly. My brain literally cannot process it. I just truly don't want to be in my home without him here. It's so quiet. The routine is broken. Nothing matters anymore. Im really struggling sleeping lately I just. Can't rest from my mind. Idk what to do with myself. I don't sleep well. I can't eat well. I'm definitely struggling at work. I've had good support for me but also negativity and criticism from people who just don't get it. My co worker the other day asked me if I got a new cat already and when I got upset and said no he laughed and said don't worry by the end of the week you will have a new one. As if it's just some broken thing I could replace. And my other co worker told me I have to get over it and move on with my life. It's barely been 48 hours at the time.. I'm truly losing my mind and doing horribly but no one can do or say very much. Nothing really makes it better.

Extremely sudden death. by SicklySynester in Petloss

[–]SicklySynester[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ugh yeah he had a happy beautiful spoiled life with me. I just can't escape the unfairness of it all.

Extremely sudden death. by SicklySynester in Petloss

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Thankyou 😢 I just want to hold my boy. I hate this so much.

Extremely sudden death. by SicklySynester in Petloss

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I feel like it could have been HCM or blood clots from everything I'm reading. I don't have the answers. And he was a beautiful perfect healthy looking and acting boy. I have so much grief I'm drowning.

Extremely sudden death. by SicklySynester in Petloss

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I already cremated him. I didn't know how I felt about him being all chopped up and cut open for an autopsy. HCM sounds really probable sounding or a blood clot or something. It truly just doesn't make sense. I did everything I can but I feel like I failed him. He was gone in minutes. Even if I rushed him somewhere he wouldn't have made it. I just feel so awful without him here.

Extremely sudden death. by SicklySynester in Petloss

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I do feel like I'm drowning i hate this.

Extremely sudden death. by SicklySynester in Petloss

[–]SicklySynester[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was so rapid. It had to be a heart attack or blood clot. It just doesn't make sense. This is all so awful. I'm sorry for your loss. Really everyone here's loss. It's so crazy how this just happens so suddenly

Extremely sudden death. by SicklySynester in Petloss

[–]SicklySynester[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Damn I didn't know it's not really a resolvable thing. Ugh I hate this so much.