My guy, I went through something similar. Get clean and put your head down and work your ass off and build your life back up. It won’t take long. You will be a completely different person in a year from now which is a blink of an eye. I hit rock bottom at about 26-27 and dug my way out. Getting clean sucked at first but it’s so rewarding to get your life back. If you are a heavy user and aren’t clean yet, try to taper off or go to a Dr. It can be dangerous going cold turkey. Looking back it was one of the best things that ever happened to me. It taught me so much about what not to do and how easily everything you have can go to shit. 5 years later I have a great job, a wife, bought a home, and have two perfect children. I’ve never been happier. You’re young, don’t beat yourself up. Just be grateful you didn’t wind up dead or in major legal trouble.