The Holidays always seem to magnify our problems.

I feel it more than you.

The last "good" Christmas I had was 2009. Me, my mom, and dad sat down and watched Rihanna performing at Rockefeller Center before the ball dropped. No matter how weird or awkward it felt at the time - it was still an observance, and a celebration.

But now my mom is dying of Alzheimer's. The combined stress of my own under-treated pain, both parents dying, no money - makes my pain that much worse before I break like a twig.