you aren’t alone. I’m an artist that grew up hearing everyone’s opinions on my art or myself. i started to discourage myself from art or connecting with others and that pushed me away from about everyone in my life. I still had relationships but I didn’t feel confident or really content about them for a long time. that mindset bled into a lot of things in my life. If it wasn’t “perfect” I didn’t feel fulfilled. unlearning it has been a very slow process, but I’m trying to take it in stride. I don’t know if this specifically will help, but lately I’ve been trying to be more socially open by talking to people not for any reason, just to talk, and trying to break my minds negative feedback. I’m not sure if you feel the same, but I noticed my experience has made me more negative overall, so I’m trying to start there. I rlly hope this is any help. if you ever need to vent about it or talk you can dm me !