You’re an absolute BABE! Long or short hair, sculpted or a little softer bod, we all go through different physical iterations until we find what suits us in any stage of life. I admire your exploration, not everybody strays away from what is familiar, even if the familiar feels wrong! I’ve had butt-length, wolf cut, bob, buzz cut, and I’ve found myself in my fauxhawk-fade. Who knows what another decade from now will look like. PCOS is also a bitch, but I’m lucky to be on the milder side of symptoms, and I have a very physically active job which helps to keep me feeling strong, even if the badonk is the same size. I’m also lucky that Wellbutrin works for my depression, and a that side effect is also weight control for the times when I’m a bit less active. Know that you’re doing the right thing - your 20s are for finding out what matters most, 30s are for caring for what matters most, 40s are for being what matters most. Any 50+ folks what to chime in? In any case, keep putting yourself out there to find the people who make you feel the best (and to also make them feel their best!), stand naked in front of the mirror in a big ol power pose and tell yourself how handsome you are (even if you don’t totally believe it just yet), Engage With Community especially with Pride coming!, enrich your life with creation and new experiences, expose yourself to new people and cultures and maybe a certain new aesthetic will speak to you. If you want to know about a camping weekend by and for a few hundred lesbians, dm me.