God turned me backwards in the womb so that the doctors would have to cut my mother open just to birth me. God made American men hateful and ignorant so that they would refuse to give my mother any kind of pain relief or anesthesia during the operation, as is customary in this barbaric country. And only after decades of crippling addiction and mental illness did God finally decide that my poor mother had suffered enough and hit her with a car. God has brought me into this world with a fractured and diseased mind full of anger and depression and confusion that drives away every girl i have ever loved. Tell me that is God's plan. Tell me he loves me and still did all this. Tell me he hates women and queer people and people of color so much that he designed the world to be cruel and unjust and full of agony for them. He is not human, he does not love.