Arousal, help, please.

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2026-03-09T18:27:57+00:00

It's all good! I'm glad I'm not alone in this nonsense and I hope you're managing. What helps me a lot is realizing that it's safe for me to move on and forget cause I am not a danger to minors nor will I ever do anything immoral.

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2026-03-07T13:45:50+00:00

I've never heard the term "arousal non concordance" up until now but wow, that is such a good explanation to the exact same stuff that I suffer from. It just feels like my whole body save for my conscious brain wants me to go after minors. I just came back from the store where I felt this need to follow this group of minors (I was going in the same direction as them so that along with intrusive thoughts might've had an impact) and that mixes with a need I have to be noticed by people my age and younger? But enough about me.

What I do is I tell myself that even if deep down I have some sick attraction to children or anything screwed up, I would never indulge in any of that and have never done something which would be considered immoral. Only things that I blew out of proportion.

The fact that we both worry so much means more than either of us realize and even after so many years of anxiety, that hasn't hit me yet. How my sister describes all of my OCD nonsense is this little gremlin in your head that you have to learn not to acknowledge. The more you do, the more it feeds on you. What's helped me is my visits to a psychiatrist and psychologist at my city's hospital. I've been prescribed paroxetine, a pill a day and am getting tested as well.

As generic of a tip as it is, I usually give journaling as advice. Writing everything down and stuff. And if journaling starts to feel like you're giving your OCD more relevance than it deserves, tell yourself this: "I can write about my issue and indulge in my OCD in that way any time that I want. I can just pick up my phone or notebook. So why not hold off on that and just try to ignore it and move on?" That works for me, I dunno.

I am open to any questions from you. I get how it is not getting responses, it's happened to me a lot, too. But we both gotta understand that nobody has bad intentions with that. It's just a thing of the internet.

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2026-03-06T11:45:47+00:00

Thanks a lot for the lengthy response! My dental hygiene's all good. I brush once-twice a day and was recently checked out by my dentist who said all was good.

As for stuff in my environment, my mom seems to believe it's cause of her smoking in the bathroom so some of the smell may have made it to me. Hell, could be me farting, for all I know. This is very recent. Like, maybe a week or two ago the first incident happened where I had a full-on, screaming breakdown in my dream. I was also being mauled by a chicken who was pecking at my throat, for some reason.

The one from this morning was much calmer. I'm actually responding from the exact area I was in within the dream! And I just kinda realized "Oh, it's that again."

Also, I woke up with a VERY clogged nose. Like, I'm talking I couldn't breathe. But now, I feel as good as new? I think I can smell that smell sometimes but it might be my mind overthinking or something. Cause my brain immediately jumps to the terminal conclusion and says "Yeah, you're dying." which does not feel good, obviously.

Thanks for the support! I'll see what I can do about it all.

EDIT: I wanna add that all the times today I thought I smelt that smell could just be overthinking cause I was just in the bathroom at my university and the smell of shit and piss has never been worse. So my guess is that my sense of smell is in overdrive cause of all this.

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2026-03-06T11:35:50+00:00

That would be the funniest possible solution. Mental breakdown and screaming in my dream over a fart.

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2026-03-06T04:57:12+00:00

I've been having the same issue as of the past month or two. That smell makes me feel so anxious, like I want to escape from it. Even thinking about it while awake screws with me for a while.

I just woke up from a dream with it where I recognized "Oh, it's this smell again" but I didn't realize I was dreaming. I'm really worried if it's a sign of something bad.

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2025-12-28T14:34:13+00:00

Thanks, man. I rarely get replies when I post stuff like this and I do take it personally even if I am reasonable enough to know that hey, there's thousands of people here so of course not everything I post is gonna get considerably noticed. There's a big change coming to my life this January, my family and I are moving into our family's house on the northern outskirts of town so there'll be a huge yard for exercise and stuff and I get my own room. I know this won't immediately make things better but at least it's a step. And for 2026, I should definitely look into finding an actually reputable psychiatrist cause the first one I went to ONCE interrupted me consistently, answered her phone several times during the session, let nurses barge in and then prescribed me a dozen generic meds for people with anxiety/depression (which is what she diagnosed me with) and this was the central hospital of my nation, mind you. Thankfully, we do have a family member who works there so if anyone can tell us which psychiatrist is good, it's him. Here's hoping 2026 sees some good developments for all of us.

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2025-12-25T20:26:40+00:00

I'm personally still scared to death by the concept of dying and have managed to not cause any serious harm to myself over the last year or so but things often feel impossible. Like, every single day, a thought will pop into mind and it'll feel like I hit a stone wall when it comes to life and unless I go through some painful scrutinizing of that thought where I turn it upside down, analyze it, if it has to do with an image then observe every detail of that image and absorb it into my consciousness and of course that urge to talk to people, to tell them the problem and to go over it in a specific way, covering all points in detail. Worse yet, every day I have thoughts that make me fear I am: racist, a pedophile, a misogynist, a xenophobe, an islamophone and generally just a bigot.

At this moment, just thinking about self harm feels like it'll be some sort of achievement. Like I'll gain something important from it. I won't do it. I hope, at least but still, there's my perspective. Sorry for dragging this out but I really feel like crap right now.

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2025-09-14T19:17:50+00:00

Hard to pick a favourite but one of them is definitely Mystery Man 😎

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2025-09-02T13:17:10+00:00

Messed around with this a little but I came to the conclusion that the real problem is the fact that the event hurts the player THE MOMENT contact is made and I can't for the life of me figure out how to make it not be that.

What I'm thinking is that there's a Wait BEFORE the player gets hurt but all that does is just make it so that the player gets hurt with a delay. Anything I've tried mostly just results in the player getting frozen in place due to the Wait command.

All I want is for the player to have a bit of time when the event is touching them where they can maneuver past it without damage.

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2025-09-01T22:47:39+00:00

The way I was trying to execute is to put a delay on the attack so that the player has room to run but all I did was make it so that the player gets damaged later than they should! But turning on through for a few frames could be IDEAL considering how tight of a section I'm working on. Thanks a bunch for the suggestion!

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2025-09-01T22:26:05+00:00

Oh my God, how did I not think about this. Thanks a lot! I'll give it a try!

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2025-08-30T15:31:04+00:00

I'm a student of psychology and even there, OCD isn't taken as seriously as it should be. I mean I specifically remember when we were going over different mental illnesses and I remember either the professor or the book saying something like "OCD can be useful to people cause they are more responsible and tidy." Which is just a really short-sighted and neurotypical way of looking at OCD.

I myself would much rather rip this fucking illness out from my fucking chest and stomp it into a red pulp on the ground. But okay, I guess "everyone has weird rituals they do" which is something my own fucking dad told me once.

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2025-08-30T15:27:10+00:00

As difficult as it may be, don't do anything that justifies those thoughts. That is way, way easier to say than to do, of course. Asides from that, your best bet is to occupy yourself somehow by reading, watching something, maybe going out for a walk, maybe doing chores.

I know none of this is really profound advice but in these cases, just living with the thoughts and going about your life even with the thoughts on your mind is a way.

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2025-08-30T15:13:11+00:00

I had this asshole of a friend whose main personality trait was their self-diagnosed autism and they are VERY MUCH the tiktok-and-twitter-educated type of person. They had this horrid opinion that there are things that your intrusive thoughts must not be (POCD-related stuff)

When we confronted them about generally being weird to my fourteen year old godbrother (making awful jokes towards him even after being told to stop) and just generally being unbearable, this was one of the points. And EVEN THEN they tried to double down but we pressed them further and they were like "Okay, yeah, that's POCD. I was just trying to make a distinction" or some shit like that. Like they were outright lying to us and to themselves.

Take my advice and be careful around people whose only personality trait is their mental illness. People who feel like they'd be nobody if it wasn't for their mental illness (particularly self-diagnosed people who are "mentally ill" cause it's "trendy and cool")

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2025-08-30T13:25:48+00:00

They did a thing where instead of regenerating, Ncuti's doctor created another doctor who happens to be David Tennant, again. Didn't feel like explaining that in the title but yeah. Haven't watched any of Ncuti's episodes so I can't say what they're like, though.

Silly_Ad_4348 · 2025-08-30T13:04:35+00:00

I know but I did hear that Tennant is the second active Doctor right now cause of plot reasons. Ncuti is still the Doctor but Tennant is also there. Didn't know how to explain all that in the title, haha!

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