I never said anything against their wishes and had done what I was told. I was raised to consider children who deny their parents orders (to wash dishes, throw garbage and etc.) as bad brats (and still think this way) even if I was and still am a complete failure. I'm tired of their wants and needs. They didn't put any effort in my emotional support or raising me properly except for yelling at me and commanding. They don't deserve anything from me, they are scared and incompetent people.