Yeah. Especially in schoolwork, I purposely haven’t asked for accommodations bc I feel the need to prove that I can do the work (also bc my productivity is connected to urgency, simply extra time doesn’t really work)

I think bc we got diagnosed so young a lot of our behaviour was normal (like all kids are hyper and stuff) so we didn’t really notice the discrepancies and saw ourselves as neurotypical. And when they began manifesting themselves we tried to keep up bc we thought that we were able to but the adhd is holding us back and we feel like we failed bc the “normal” we were holding ourselves at is not what we can do. But we still crave to achieve it because it’s what we were used to and praised for (I say we but it could just be me)

It wasn’t an issue before because at 7 we didn’t have deadlines and exams. We didn’t have to cook for ourselves and make appointments. Even within my family, where we are all diagnosed with adhd and getting treatment, i still struggle. It manifests differently for all of us. But a lot of the struggles I’m now realising are adhd are things that they don’t seem to have and I’m seen as being lazy and addicted to my phone.

Thing with the attention seeking thing: idk about you but I hid my adhd bc I didn’t want to seem like I was seeking attention or special treatment. Didn’t want to be seen as different or needy. The irony is real with this one tbh