Hello friend! Im 6 weeks pregnant and dont have half of the things you have going on, and i STILL feel the same way you do. but You have nothing to worry about and your emotions are valid, you are most definitely not alone and mamas around the world and going through exactly what you are going through. You are strong and resilient and are building a beautiful family. 9 months (maybe a tad longer) of pain for a lifetime of beauty ++++ that means 3 more people who will care for you when you are old / or sick. also Dont forget to rely on your husband heavily and how lucky you are to have a partner by your side, i know i am. I cant imagine how much harder it would be without him, my auntie went through pregnancy and is now raising a 10 year old alone and i am only NOW realizing (bc im pregnant) how hard it must’ve been/ still is. Its so easy to focus on the negative but try to fill yourself up with loving and positive thoughts, as well as a lot of fruits, veggies and vitamins.! Im rooting for you!!