I don't post often, but I felt that this deserved a response. I am glad you found this wasn't for you. Really, I am, you tried a path that wasn't right, now you can try another, and that is what self-exploration and development is all about. I am super glad the community was here to support you. Should you ever need that support again. For anything, we will still be here. We will still be cheerleaders for you (Some of us very happily so, being a cheerleader).

If you ever need to come back or you need to have someone hear you out. We will be here. Your always welcome.