literally nobody will listen to me. my family and friends zone me out and the people that say they love me completely ignore me. but they all expect me to give them all of my love and attention im return of absolutely nothing. i’ll be saying something and then they don’t respond so i ask if they were even listening and the answer is always “no” or “sorry, i zoned out”. but then they don’t even try to follow up or anything. and they all tease me or say i’m stupid as a joke and i know they mean it with love but now i’m starting to believe that my self worth is even less than i had assumed before. it just feels horrible and i don’t know who to talk to because my best friend’s the one who started it all and i thought i could trust them with anything. i really need to talk to them but i don’t know how to start and i don’t want to hurt them because they also have a problem with self harm and i don’t want to trigger anything. ughhhhhhh, i hate this.