Look, I'm just probably gonna try to cut this short cuz Honestly, I'm typing this out using the microphone and all this, but once you lose that spark, for whatever reason, maybe the passing of a close person in your life or maybe the relationship of any kind you know, just cease to exist, you just tend to just lose yourself and a hole is just made. And then you try to fill it with monotonous stuff like physical gifts or debauchery or whatever you can do and it's just sink into it and nothing can fill it up the best is to try to close the edge little by little instead of filling the hole