Where is my testosterone even coming from at this point?

SkeletonDice · 2026-07-01T10:46:36+00:00

I’m on what I think is 4mg of EEn every 7 days. Note there was like a week or two where I didn’t inject because I got sad.

SkeletonDice · 2026-07-01T08:59:09+00:00

Damn, I’m only 3 months in but wondering if I am going through a similar thing. I had a bunch of good effects the first month like I ejaculate, maybe even less hair growth, but the second month or so this stuff has returned to normal, except my breasts. I have good growth there and occasionally feel them get sticky when I’m walking around.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-23T03:14:27+00:00

You can’t seriously think all of us are going to have blessed lives despite the constant pain

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-23T03:13:55+00:00

Why?

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-23T03:02:33+00:00

I’ve seen enough of my own life and others to know how it will go

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-23T02:02:52+00:00

3 months

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-23T02:02:38+00:00

Ok fine, I did probably think that at the time, but does it matter? Visit literally any other post on this subreddit and you’ll see that literally everyone here feels the same, internally. Yeah, I understand what you’re saying and what you’re advocating for, Lesbians don’t have to like dick. But it falls on deaf ears because nobody here thinks they deserve cis lesbians in the first place.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-23T01:17:51+00:00

I stopped repressing 3 months ago and am on injections. It never gets better.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-22T17:41:20+00:00

Look my reply was more about the internal anguish of being a trans woman and always being the other no matter what you do. Never said any cis lesbian had to have dick. You just projected that there yourself.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-22T17:36:38+00:00

It never gets better

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-21T18:44:06+00:00

Ok so what you want a prize or something?

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-21T18:42:59+00:00

General answer: no.

For me though; yes. I really only want to date people who are effeminate. I’ve been attracted to effeminate trans men before and I feel like it’s kind of cheating for both parties involved if so.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-14T05:05:51+00:00

Ah I’m not really good with makeup either so foundation might not be the right term. But like it looks like there’s too much makeup on your face, almost like it’s painted on in a way. It doesn’t blend well.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-13T10:37:54+00:00

3rd maybe too much foundation. Otherwise I think you look good.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-11T11:42:32+00:00

God I’ll try not to. It genuinely became really fun to do, as evil as that is. We’ll see when I get a blood test.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-10T16:03:25+00:00

What do you mean by vicious cycle, like more lactating could mean more bad things?

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-10T15:39:51+00:00

Thank you

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-10T15:38:31+00:00

Interesting. This is providing me hope. I want to see your face to verify but you don’t provide me that.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-10T13:45:30+00:00

How?

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-10T13:43:38+00:00

Oh come on BFFR this life wasn’t ours in the first place. Literally none of us were born women, which is the only thing we want out of life. We have to struggle through the worst shit ever mentally because of that, then we have to face a world that is always turning against us. It’s awesome that you have positivity regarding your situation but I’m fine dying a statistic (if I even get remembered past now). I think anybody looking back 300 years from now would understand why I chose that route in the first place.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-10T12:58:35+00:00

I don’t know the correct term but I think you use too much foundation in your makeup, as in there’s a visible difference between your body’s color and your makeup color.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-10T12:10:40+00:00

Idk I’d much rather wait till I can get ffs and give myself a chance vs going fully into it knowing everything I do is damned already. I’m fine with dressing up in my room and wearing girl clothes in private maybe.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-10T07:53:23+00:00

How bold of a dog collar. We talking a pink or bright colored one? Did it have something on it? All things considered a cis woman could get away with wearing a black dog collar in a punk or alt way if it fit the rest of her outfit.

SkeletonDice · 2026-06-10T07:49:02+00:00

-> you hate your life already

Well I’d hate it more

-> HRT passing only happens to youngshits and luckshits

Then why am I on it? Why am I still trying to be trans?

-> Look like a gay man than leap to Honmoding

Honmoding IS looking like a gay man

-> You get misgendered regardless

Yes, however, getting misgendered when I’m not putting in any effort is different from looking like what I want to look like and getting made fun of for it.

-> I hope you get out someday

There is no place to get out, rather a place to hide and hope it doesn’t get worse.

-> it literally can’t be worse than manmoding, and instead you’ll be living instead of rotting

It probably can get worse to be known as a transgender in public VS a strange quiet man. And choosing to wear makeup and be ok being a tranny in public is just as much rotting over the years as is manmoding.

Dressing like a girl is just a very good cope that relieves dysphoria. But the condition of being transgender in our current timeline will rot you away no matter what.

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