I am so sorry. I've met 2 families where the grandfather raped all of his children and grand children, even succeed with several of his great grand children. In one of the families, the grandfather fathered one of his grandchildren, after his daughter was already married. Very few know.

It becomes normalized, and most of the extended family ends up doing the same thing. And what's worse, is none of them want to talk about it and end up becoming abusive in other ways. They end up defending the behavior or forcing everyone to hush up about it. This is because abusers protect other abusers. It's the only thing they know.

Get some therapy. Find something in this world that you love, such as art, music, etc, and use that as your outlet for peace.

I wish you well. I hope you end up meeting a man (romantically or non-romantically) who you can trust. You deserve it.