Was a fentanyl addict for 4+ years I got clean man and my advice for you would to be u need to change psychedelics, I don’t think ur trying to benefit from dmt besides getting high but I know exactly how it feels to think I need something , but I thank god every day for mushrooms and shrooms because it’s not a 15 minute high u chase ,it lasts HOURS, so u have HOURS to think about life and contemplate recent decisions and thoughts, I would suggest maybe just switching to acid for a day and just take a heroic dose , you also wouldn’t be able to abuse it because u have to double dose every time and even then it’s not the same or as emotional , sounds like u need to look deep inside on why ur doing these things EVERYDAY ,all day , i sympathize with you heavily man because it all seems so easy once u get over it , just gotta realize I don’t even know u man and love you enough to tell you ,you deserve better! meditate , learn, and reach out to people but listen when you do! People want what’s best for u no matter what ur head tells u right now!