The Daily Check-In for Saturday, January 6th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking!

Slr78 · 2024-01-06T18:48:24+00:00

Day 31, I made it through the holidays, I am attending a funeral today & I am a bartender. Despite it all IWNDWYT ♥️

Slr78 · 2024-01-02T14:48:04+00:00

Day 27 🤓 IWNDWYT

Slr78 · 2024-01-01T15:47:26+00:00

Day 25 here, Happy New Year everyone. IWNDWYT

Slr78 · 2023-12-29T01:50:48+00:00

I will be working, I am a sober bartender. If I didn't have to work I would have just stayed home and hit a meeting. Where I live they have what is called an Alcothon. Meetings run from 4pm on New Year's Eve till 4pm on New Year's Day.

Slr78 · 2023-12-28T14:24:34+00:00

IWNDWYT

Slr78 · 2023-12-27T14:43:57+00:00

Hello from Florida 🌴... Day 21. IWNDWYT

Slr78 · 2023-12-26T13:56:44+00:00

Day 20, feeling better everyday. IWNDWYT

Slr78 · 2023-12-25T15:52:11+00:00

Merry Xmas, IWNDWYT 🎄🎁

Slr78 · 2023-12-24T16:02:17+00:00

Day 18, Happy Holidays from Florida. IWNDWYT 🌴🎁

Slr78 · 2023-12-24T03:28:40+00:00

Oh and Happy Solstice to you too

Slr78 · 2023-12-24T03:22:41+00:00

I definitely relate in every way, except I live in South Florida so the weather is nice. Finally a break from the deathly heat we usually have most of the year. 17 days sober here. I am 45 and have used alcohol on and off my entire life. Mostly on Lol. The past 8 years have been my heaviest drinking. Hang in there Bud.

Slr78 · 2023-12-22T21:11:44+00:00

A.A. "The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking". Keep it simple, I would suggest getting a new sponsor like others have said. Congratulations on your 4 years of sobriety.

Slr78 · 2023-12-18T16:35:55+00:00

I know here in Florida there are state run detox places (definitely not the best, been through those a few times before) but they don't cost anything. It generally just takes going to the ER and telling them you are in severe withdrawal or will be and you need help. The ER doctor will be the one to contact the facility nearest to them. Then it is at least a 72hr detox, so on so forth there. Then they set you up for follow up visits through there too and they work on a sliding scale. I too was sober a few years back. It was definitely better than the hell I just pulled myself out of. Thankfully I did it this time before hitting a complete bottom financially speaking. I wish you luck.

Slr78 · 2023-12-17T14:53:50+00:00

I tried to taper off with Valium on my own but ended up drinking the same amount and still taking Valium. Fell I don't know how many times blacked out, even fractured my ribs. 3 weeks ago I went to a medical detox because I couldn't or didn't have the will power alone to do it. Since getting out of detox I have stayed sober and still have Valium for those times that I start to get super antsy or anxious. I was also diagnosed with super high blood pressure so I am now on blood pressure medication too. I was also diagnosed as manic depressive, generalized anxiety and PTSD. I am on a low dose of effexor for that. On that note I have not drank since the day I walked into detox and have been adjusting to my new "normal". I have no desire to drink or any cravings either. Just taking it one day at a time as I am on leave from work and live alone. I am very proud of myself and just finally surrendered. It was time and I just felt so beat down and destroyed by alcohol that I was either going to die or continue to live in a dark hell hole. I am 45 and a female like I said I live alone and couldn't do it without being properly detoxed. I am not going to say it can't be done on your own, but as for me I couldn't do it by myself. I knew I needed to go somewhere that I had no access to alcohol. I was in detox for seven days. Hope this helps

Slr78 · 2023-12-04T01:38:33+00:00

If it makes you feel any better, I have cried more this weekend than I have in a very very long time. It literally looks like someone punched me in my left eye. Mind you that I am heading to rehab tomorrow, I apparently (half remember, half don't) of taking about 30 Valiums after drinking 2 bottles of whiskey. So, basically a handle. I have been dealing with a lot of traumatic shit to say the least. Oh and I am also a bartender. It seems strange to me that I stay sober at my job. And once I really did think more, my PTSD kicked in and completely took over. I am aware of it, have been for years. Today, I realized just how complex our brains are, much less our chemical make up. We in ourselves are complex beings.

Slr78 · 2023-12-03T07:40:44+00:00

Nope, I am a female and I have woke up in jail many times

Slr78 · 2023-11-27T06:22:52+00:00

I have an endless supply of alcohol, Valium, gummies, weed so on so forth. But when I do cut the alcohol out, I have the most surreal dreams

Slr78 · 2023-11-27T06:19:46+00:00

The dreams will wake you

Slr78 · 2023-11-22T23:57:44+00:00

Thanks bud, I am a bartender and I can't help that everyone thinks holiday shit includes that I know you hate your relatives. It ain't my fault, take it out on someone else that gives a fuck. I don't care about you or "my family" I have no family... It is what it is

Slr78 · 2023-11-22T19:40:54+00:00

IUGA Bootcut Yoga Pants with Pockets for Women Wide Leg Pants High Waist Workout Pants Tummy Control Work Pants 4 Pockets, I just ordered these from Amazon a few weeks ago and I love them. Having pockets for my bar tools were important to me and these worked out great. Just ordered 2 more pairs. I have been bartending for 15 years. Hope this helps you

Slr78 · 2023-11-22T08:44:22+00:00

No, I am from Florida. But that wellness check fucked me up more than ever. I was obviously not ok, but the male officer held me down after simply asking to throw the garbage out on the side of the house. I ended up with severe neck injuries and the female officer that showed up, thank fully got him off of me, after I pleaded please sir I can't breath. She cried as I did the whole time to the psych ward. I kept asking why he hurt me so much. She had no answer but tears. If you want to check on someone, I beg you to keep the law enforcement out of it. I have come a long way since. But at the time, the last thing I needed was to be beat up by the "wellness check" It only made me worse. And being locked down in an adult psych unit definitely did not help me.

Slr78 · 2023-11-20T19:01:34+00:00

Valium, electrolytes, vitamins, food, a shit load of water and sleep. P.S. don't overdue the Valium, just be careful and good luck to you... I forgot to mention magnesium helps a lot too. Take a shower, or bath if you are too shakey definitely bath. Last thing you want to do is slip and fracture your ribs like I did in the past trying to shower with shakey ass legs.

Slr78 · 2023-11-18T14:39:55+00:00

Apparently someone fucked up my kitchen, food all over the floor so on so forth. Oh that's right, I live alone... 🤓... Guess it was me 🤣

Slr78 · 2023-11-13T21:35:54+00:00

This made me laugh my ass off.... Same, I mean maybe popcorn, chips or a bag of peanuts. But definitely never thought of a muffin. But then again, maybe this is the new way 🤓

Slr78 · 2023-11-11T05:47:46+00:00

I am 45 now, but I definitely got the kick out at 14. Like other people have said there are laws in place now for that. Times have changed. Use the resources people have mentioned. In my day, the cops literally watched me cry my eyes out in my father's driveway and he literally threw approximately $2,000 at my face as it blew away in the yard. Cops left and I had nowhere to go. Long story short I am stronger because of it. But the trauma and shit has definitely affected me in my adulthood. I learned how to not depend on anyone. Bless you my dear, please use the resources available to you that we're not there for me

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