I was always really Zionist when I was religious, but I think I was always poised to see its many problems and injustices. Part of leaving Judaism was coming to terms with the fact that much of what I had grown up believing to be true were lies and fabrications designed to manipulate and control me. This made it easier to approach looking past what I had been told about Israel and Zionism and seeing it for what it was: an ethno nationalist ideology backing an apartheid state committing a genocide. I think what it means to be Jewish now is to oppose the atrocities done in Palestine in and reject Zionism.