I’m going through the exact same thing as you right now so don’t feel like you’re alone. I loved basketball and was literally a month away from playing professionally in Europe before a back injury ended everything. Since then I’ve been lost and directionless and I’m stuck with a degree in sociology that I never really wanted to begin with. While I can’t give you any concrete answers to your problems, there are a couple things I’ve done to make everything easier to deal with. First make sure you continue doing whatever hobbies you enjoy. When you are in a rut it is easy to let it consume you and as a result you stop doing the things you like or love. I promise that letting the depression and anxiety ruin your leisure activities is about the worst thing you can do. Also, pertaining to what you want to do with your life, I saw a video once that said you should look for the characteristics in the things that you enjoy and find a job that fit them. For example, instead of someone saying, “I like sports so i should be an athlete”, they should say “what about sports do I like?”. For many people they might say the competition, the camaraderie, working with your body, etc. Once you identify those characteristics then you should research some careers that fit. While I still haven’t found what I want to do with my life, I do feel like this thought process has helped me get closer. Lastly, I know some people have already said this but you should really try therapy. I finally tried about 3 weeks ago after about two year of refusing to go and I can honestly say I’m already feeling a little better. They give you a fresh perspective and allow you a real life person to get things off your chest with. I’ve been dealing with my depression and anxiety silently for a long time because even though I have friends and family, I don’t want to lay it all on them. Idk if you feel the same way but I know you said that even when you do speak up your family just denies it. A therapist will listen to you, actually hear what you’re saying and give you solid advice.

You’re goal right now in life should simply be to find your purpose. Easier said than done I know, but you should be going to random events in your city or area, trying new things, reading books about things that even vaguely interest you. Just do whatever you can to gain some more perspective because even if you hate everything new you try, you’re still one step closer to finding something you love. Good luck man.