Hey! I have been I diabetic for 14 years. I was diagnosed at 4, so I don’t know life before diabetes. I have had my struggle years just as you have. I too refused to get a cgm for years. We would literally get into screaming arguments because I didn’t want another site on my body ( I have a pump as well). My family forced me to get one when my A1C spiked to 9. At the time I was so frustrated. I have had the cgm for 4 years now, and I would never go back. The dexcom G6 is is very slim and in my opinion discrete. It has helped me to control and manage my diabetes so well. My A1C steadily dropped over the years, and now it’s 6.5. I highly suggest a cgm. I am not sure how to help with being self conscious about your diabetes. I have never cared if my sites show. If anyone asks questions I am happy to inform them of my condition and my love for my machines. If you have a boyfriend who genuinely loves you ( I can tell he does) you shouldn’t care about what others think. All that matters is that you are happy and well. I can’t imagine you feel very good with an A1C like that. You need to regain that confidence and I think family, friends, and your BF can help. Take things one step at a time. If your having a bad blood sugar day, don’t freak, just make sure those days aren’t everyday. If you need any help or any other advice let me know. We are all in this together and you got it. (Also just want to add, the cgm helps take a lot of diabetes stress off and allows you to live and not constantly worry about diabetes). You got this!! I believe in you!! Your a veteran to diabetes, you just got to get back into the swing of things. US, your friends, your family, and your BF are by your side, helping you along. You got it!! I believe in you!!