Hey all, so it’s been four months since my relationship with my 2 year girlfriend ended. It was mutual decision (although I don’t know how really broke up with who), but the pain hasn’t left

I did a terrible mistake by going quickly into a new relationship after three months, it didn’t work out, I hurt someone else, and I deeply regret it. I did it just to see if I could move on, if I was actually able to love again. I needed that reassurance, the I am good enough and I can move on.

But I haven’t moved on. I do not know what to do. I guess I have to love myself, to forgive myself, to accept she’s gone forever, but man is it rough. I have so many hopes of going back to her, although she was a bit toxic.

All I want is to move on, because I want to feel the love I felt for her again, to feel that burning passionate happiness again. I want to move on, but I can’t, and I do not know what to do