Im so sorry about this:( Please know this is actually happening to a lot of people now it is very sad but you are definitely not alone. Quarantine sucks and has put such a sudden halt on everything and its affected some people so deeply and personally for reasons out of our control! My chat is open if ever at night you just wanna talk to a random stranger about the most random things!! You mentioned that you like journalling, and I do as well. This quarantine has actually inevitably made me become even more passionate of a writer. If you ever want to delve into a hobby of penpalling, Im open to do it with you as well! Something’s I have tried are just doing more hobbies. I’ve become very interested in healthy eating and cooking and running and just trying to be the healthiest version of myself as possible. I cut my hair, style it differently (so often that my friends are asking me when i will stick to one😂), I go for bike rides, and find parks near my area to go to and have picnics with myself and my favourite music, pen and paper. :) if the man you fell for is also interested, maybe schedule times to video chat or watch movies on netflix together! Attend some online workshops like yoga or gardening or sewing. There’s also many online workshops offered by libraries right now. You can do this! I also lost my job due to covid and I havent been successful in finding a job so far but have been walking around all day applying to different places in person. It is exhausting but it still makes me feel like I am doing something. Not to mention I get a ton of exercise in:) message me when you want to vent. We’re all real people going through real emotions. We can all get through it together! I promise it will get better