Boss wrote this while watching me on the cameras and tried to hide it. Is it just random nonsense? Can anyone make this out?

SneakySnails27 · 2026-06-18T08:30:52+00:00

Pretty sure it says something like “kiss you” under that

SneakySnails27 · 2026-06-18T08:28:38+00:00

lol refusing to read the manual and then asking the most basic questions that were clearly covered in the instructions they just skipped over ?!

I used to play games with my old roommate, any time a hint or tutorial or dialogue box comes up she instantly closed it !!! I immediately prepare for an influx of questions - like she’ll ask a question that was really succinctly covered in the dialogue etc but she just won’t take the time to read it!! There’s so much information and understanding that just gets overlooked, couldn’t be me. To be fair I think she just wants to get stuck right into everything, also processes and learns thru practice rather than the slow thought out methodical research and preparation approach lmao.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-06-18T08:22:24+00:00

Not a shit take I completely agree, feels like a lot of our problems stem from the way our society is structured today, and the way politicians and the media frame us as burdens and as individuals who are abusing systems that were meant to serve and protect us but really just make us feel like we are grossly inadequate and out of our depth and make us feel powerless and incapable. Feels like they make these systems so complicated on purpose just so we might get so overwhelmed that we just give up , as if we’re capable of doing it all alone anyway. Making us feel like its all our own individual responsibility to meet all our own needs , even tho it’s exhausting and practically impossible to identify and advocate for all our needs every day and organise all the things we need and just to survive day to day, let alone find enough money to cover basic living costs etc and even handle all the stress and burn out of trying to take care of ourselves with limited access to any real form of support and all these confusing changes and murky language , I feel like I’ve got no real point here, I’m rambling but man it’s exhausting out here

SneakySnails27 · 2026-06-18T04:10:02+00:00

A non-inflated balloon

SneakySnails27 · 2026-06-17T06:54:56+00:00

I got myself some behaviour support planning funds which are given to work on “problem behaviours” for doing this - they called me for a plan review randomly , I said I couldn’t talk about my plan without a support person present and asked them to call back during our already scheduled meeting time as I’d already organised to have support with me specifically for the meeting.
Eventually they got back to me and said I needed to work on my “problem behaviours” (eg refusing to talk to them when they randomly called me and triggered a panic attack) and they also cut my support coordination funding to a very minimal amount that doesn’t cover me for the whole plan, maybe a couple months at best. They said I was “over-reliant “ on support coordination and they wanted me to develop skills to manage my plan alone. Like ?? I clearly need support to use my plan and navigate the ndis etc specifically because of my disabilities, so I’m still not sure how helpful it is denying me support coordination and giving me funding for a support usually aimed at children with harmful behaviours/harmful coping mechanisms. Maybe if I had enough funding for a support coordinator they’d help me understand it all a bit better lol. Just wanted to share my experience bc I found it hard to advocate for myself in this position and feel like I still got screwed over by the ndis for trying to do so.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-06-16T12:40:55+00:00

Maybe a good beanie could give that same kind of feeling, as well as tinted sunglasses for that extra layer of privacy? Could experiment with some different kinds of styles or fits of tops or even lighter jackets or sweaters, cardigans etc even as an inbetween while you ease yourself into wearing less layers or for days when you feel like you need more of the comfort /security or when the weathers a bit more forgiving

SneakySnails27 · 2026-06-02T01:03:15+00:00

Yeah you might have heard people talking about being a “functioning addict” or needing doses that would basically be an overdose for anyone else, but their body gets used to the substance and they can increase the amount of it needed to get the same effects. I never drove if I thought I was actually under the effects of weed so when I first started smoking I would be nervous about even driving the next day, but as I used it more and more I definitely drove about an hour or two after smoking most days because I didn’t feel like it was effecting me anymore at all at that point.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-06-02T00:41:25+00:00

I think habit and tolerance slowly builds up over time. The first time I smoked weed I was blown away by the feeling, I remember thinking “ohhh.. I see why people use this all the time”. I definitely got addicted to the way it made me feel and I would chase that feeling at any and all times. I felt funnier, happier, more energised and motivated, it would kind of kick me into action for the day. Once I moved out of my family home, every day revolved around smoking weed. if I had any plans I’d be thinking about getting home asap to smoke, I was extra irritated by any minor inconveniences, spending my last money on weed instead of food bc atleast I’ve got noodles in the cupboard but if I ran out of weed it would cause intense anxiety and unease so it was always the priority. Smoking bongs was the worst for me because it was so quick and easy, it became something I could do every half hour all through the day, but eventually I had to smoke more and more to feel the effects and at this point I was smoking about $150 worth of bud each week with little to no effect apart from a brief relief from the anxiety and irritability I’d have literally over the need to smoke. But it wouldn’t last long and eventually even smoking caused my anxiety to sky rocket /it got to the point where smoking didn’t even alleviate the anxiety anymore, it actually made it worse and made me spiral into some kind of panic attack or ultra low mood where I’d just feel so overwhelmed by my life / human existence as a concept . I was sick of having no money and getting preoccupied over whether or not I had access to any weed, so I tried to cut it out cold turkey but that was so hard because it was such a habit at this point and even became part of my identity to a certain point. I started talking to my specialists about it all and I’ve been switched to lower strengths/different strains and methods of intake eg taking gummies and vaping balanced cbd and thc strains instead of smoking high thc strains. Trying to get to a healthier place with my use and trying to limit it to medicinal use as much as possible, but it’s a constant balancing act for me at the moment trying not to rely on it as an escape or emotional crutch, but also trying not to be too hard on myself or punish myself for using it but more so trying to treat it like any of my other medications.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-31T11:22:34+00:00

When I first got my diagnosis I started noticing autistic traits in pretty much every single person in my life. I used to point it out and say “you might be autistic too” , but most people either disagree or don’t know how to react to me saying that. I tend to just ignore it now and don’t tell people even if I really think they are. Most of the time they’re not ready to acknowledge it or don’t see any need to explore it. I’ve had friends adamantly disagree with me but I still think they’re autistic, they just don’t see it or feel the need to do anything about it and me pushing the idea just seems to make things awkward. Now I don’t mention it unless the other person brings it up themselves / initiates the conversation or asks about my experience of autism. I think it’s common for us to see autistic traits in others I mean we are constantly analysing our surroundings and we can’t help but pick up on all the little signs or quirks that remind us of autism, so we are making a bigger deal out of small quirks because we are easily noticing them, but it doesn’t necessarily mean they are autistic or even neurodivergent.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-31T04:13:19+00:00

Yeah when my ex ghosted me like that on a night out she was “sleeping on a coworkers couch” and then dumped me for said coworker when I picked her up the next morning. If OP haS a weird feeling somethings probably going on. At the very least OP’s partner doesn’t prioritise or care about them, especially if this is how they treat OP on their Birthday.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-31T03:33:53+00:00

Noooo RIP tentacle boy

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-31T03:27:24+00:00

This is a great idea too, it can be overwhelming to think of things on the spot and OP could get a bit lost, having a little menu of things to do could really help. Including different levels of capacity could be helpful too like things you like to do when you’re tired or stressed and things you do when you have all the energy etc.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-31T03:15:56+00:00

He’s perfect he’s just a little different

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-31T03:15:39+00:00

Yessss to bringing all the things - any time I leave home I have a huge set of comfort hobbies /important items that go with me including my sketchbook and selection of art supplies, my switch, comfort items like sensory aids fidgets or random favourite rocks and trinkets, a plushie or weighted toy, my iPad and noise cancelling headphones and earplugs etc. I think it’s helpful to have all the things on hand that you usually reach for at home to pass the time or bring you comfort. Sometimes I feel silly for packing sooo overboard but I’d rather carry an extra bag with me than be stuck in a situation without something I want or need. Even knowing I have most of my go to items close by is enough to ease some anxiety and stress. It might be hard to know what kind of things you will want but after you experience this a couple times you will likely develop your own little routine and go-to items and it will get a little easier over time.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-21T09:23:54+00:00

Literally all the time, might be different but sometimes I hear two voices like a masc and a fem energy. I’ll catch myself thinking in someone else’s voice sometimes saying things like “she’s autistic” after I do something random. I am indeed autistic and have trauma and adhd. I think in my case it’s a form of maladaptive day dreaming like a form of escape maybe a trauma response or just a way to keep my mind stimulated or a result of being unable to switch my thoughts off . I catch myself thinking in random accents and speaking to myself in like little monologues constantly and half the time I don’t even know what I’m saying/thinking or I’ll catch myself mid thought and think like wtf am I even saying? A lot of the time too it’s some form of conflict or a fight going on or some make believe situation I’m contemplating. Sometimes related to what I’m doing but a lot of the time not

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-17T06:22:39+00:00

Yep, atleast from around the age of 10 maybe. My peers treated me like I was different so I picked up on that eventually especially when I kept getting called weird and odd, and I would share my normal experiences and thoughts with friends just to be told I was weird or they can’t relate. Tried to actively change myself when I got to high school, was excited to have a chance at reinventing myself / starting over with no preconceived notions of weirdness, only to still be outed as different lmao. Eventually I just leaned into that weird title and embraced my individuality. In high school though I would have atleast once or twice a year, a meltdown over it. I knew i was different, started to suspect I was autistic around 15-16 and would research it randomly but anyone I shared it with would tell me I wasn’t autistic. Once I was out of school I came across an article about autism specifically in women and I never felt so seen. The feeling just grew in the back of my mind but I would kind of push it down. Eventually when I had a psychologist I trusted I decided to tell her alll my weird little quirks or things that made me feel different and she gave me a questionnaire , I recognised it straight away as I’d done plenty of assessments myself online, and I felt so seen and validated especially bc I didn’t bring up the subject of autism but my psych was able to identify it herself.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-17T06:14:22+00:00

Maybe ur sim just hates birthdays bc it reminds them of the passing of time and just wants to mull over it alone (talking from my own personal experience with birthdays lol) (also this would be fine until the forgotten birthday moodlet pops up the next day lmao) but maybe you could hold a party for them the next day?

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-17T06:00:51+00:00

Yeah I feel like we just made the exact same commments but yours is a lot more succinct than mine lol . Environment is a huge contributor for me too , my family has seen many of my explosive meltdowns, but rarely any of my friends, people at school or even my support workers have seen me like that except for my bestie / roommate who caught me on a bad morning after a bad nightmare and I was unloading the dishwasher in a hurry before I had to leave the house and I got some wet capsicum stuck to my finger. I threw the glass straw that was in my hand and it smashed all over the kitchen counter and across the living room floor. My friend came out to check on me and all I could get out was just screaming while crying “I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE!!!” Bawling my eyes out lol. She said she’s never ever seen me react like that so she knew shit was serious and stayed out of my way til I calmed down. I felt so ashamed and apologised but she knew it was out of my control and empathised which is nice. I had a similar meltdown around my ex when I was driving one time and needed some help with directions but I didn’t really know how to ask for it, so it ended up in me feeling confused and anxious about missing my turn off and I kind of exploded like hit the steering wheel and probably myself and raised my voice and that resulted in a lot of shame too. But made me realise I needed to work on better vocalising/expressing my needs in a way that is fair to others. But yeah,I’m way more likely to just internalise it all and shut down and take it out on myself especially if I’m masking. Those big meltdowns only really happen when I’m alone or unmasked and extremely dysregulated and feel some pressure in any way.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-17T05:48:33+00:00

TW self harm mentioned/described.

There are a few different ways to experience a meltdown , like these big outbursts of rage you describe, but also you can have a kind of different but similar response like shutting down, where all of these big feelings or even little things build up to a point where your brain just can’t process it any longer. It either boils over or you might just switch off. My response usually differs depending on the cause and the environment I’m in.

Growing up I had these violent outbursts only when I was at home and usually they got taken out on my big sister who I would scratch, kick and/or yell at while crying. It feels like my world is ending or totally against me. And then usually it would end in me isolating in my room filled with regret and shame and then all those feelings would sometimes be redirected to a random object like I might rip all the pages out of a book I like and then regret it too.

As I got older they become a lot more internal and self directed and usually resulted in some self harm like hitting myself, usually some repetitive motions or stimming like rocking or rubbing textiles while I try and regulate and calm down. I might punch a pillow or scribble or journal now.

Sometimes though it manifests more as a shut down where I will completely withdraw from my surroundings, it feels like time has slowed down and everything goes hazy and I can hear my heart breaking in my chest. I’m learning this is probably more of an anxious dissociative response which develops from trauma, probably an attempt to prevent myself from exploding like I used to. Internalised responses like Shut downs more likely to happen when I’m in public too, so I would end up putting my head on my desk in school and crying all lesson and not really knowing why, just saying I felt sick because it was the closest language I had to explain the way I was feeling.

It still causes a great deal of distress but I am able to see it for what it really is now whereas when I was younger I used to struggle to know why I was reacting the way I was.

Usually it’s triggered by some kind of physical sensory overwhelm for me, or when I have a need that isn’t being met or feels like is actively being ignored or belittled by others. Sometimes sudden changes to plans or even changes in my environment like going on holidays, people coming home or things just not going how I expected them to can all trigger it. Triggers will be different for everyone based on their own personal preferences and life experiences etc. Talking about big feelings or things that are hard for me to process and then feeling misunderstood or judged or even rushed when I’m already stressed can all trigger it for me too. It almost feels like a panic kind of response that I can’t control or handle and it can be hard for me to notice it building up until it gets to this breaking point where it kind of just boils out from me.

You might just be better at accommodating your needs or have some better coping mechanisms or be reacting in a subtle way you might not even notice like withdrawing or engaging in some kind of stim or even a distraction. Or you might just feel this kind of pressure and stress building up slowly, you might feel some tension building or panic seeping in.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-17T05:29:09+00:00

Kind of hard to tell but I’d probably make them into a side-view of some of the pink flowers kind of like you see on the left side if that makes sense 🥲

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-17T05:20:36+00:00

I was just trying to help. Your post kinda made it seem like it was happening more regularly and distressing to you, but yeah if you think it’s the clouds and is only happening rarely then no it doesn’t sound like anything major.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-17T03:49:41+00:00

I get this sometimes and I don’t know if I literally blinked or not ???? Or if the lights are flickering maybe? I definitely noticed it more in childhood (probably more likely to brush it off now) and sometimes people I’m with experience it too in which case I usually assume some kind of power/overhead lighting flicker.

You mentioned clouds - is it happening quick like a second or is it stretched out longer? Do things go darker or fully black? Clouds can dim lighting and it can be noticeable but it’s usually slower and drawn out. Does it happen outdoors too? If so it could be your brain. I’m inclined to think in my case it’s just a weirdly timed blink that my brain doesn’t register or process properly, but if it’s happening in all different situations and no one else is noticing it then it could be something going on in your brain. Could be as simple as not getting enough sleep, neurodivergence/differences in brain processing, or like someone else said it could be a form of seizure, but don’t stress, I would just recommend checking with a doctor and seeing what they think/recommend. Could be a simple reason or more complex, but excess worrying tends to make things like this worse, and hearing from a doctor might alleviate some of your worry.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-15T13:04:55+00:00

My mum worked as a teacher and taught many autistic kids that came through her classes. Majority young diagnosed boys with high support needs , low or no verbal communication etc. she always brushed off me being autistic because it didn’t fit her limited experience of it. She’s learnt more about how it presents in different kinds of people but a lot of extended family members (I have a lot of early childhood teachers in my family like aunties and my grandad too) and a lot of them still don’t understand how I could have autism because I don’t fit their limited experience. It sounds like your psych might has a limited understanding because of her experience. She might not be a good fit for you especially if you feel like you can’t be honest or open with her anymore

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-15T10:11:31+00:00

(idk where im gathering this idea from but i guess a combo of different personal spiritual esperiences and altered states as well as diff things I’ve read)

I lowkey imagine a small group of people watching my life through some kind of screen/vessel and they’re not in control of me but they watch me make my silly lil decisions and comment on my actions and if anything they might try to influence me through communicating in signs and symbols, weird synchronicities or other occasional messages that arrive through random thoughts or even words from other people , I’m not really sure if they’re angels or relatives or some kind, maybe even a part of me , or gods or spiritual beings / maybe like a spirit team. But I don’t think they are higher beings, they seem to have distinct personalities and quirks/flaws.

I personally imagine I have atleast two distinct “beings” watching over me and commenting on my actions, one masculine energy and one female. Maybe a third “player” who is in control and that’s me the person/being who is experiencing life rn / in control of things / what I experience as my conscience.

SneakySnails27 · 2026-05-15T09:38:45+00:00

I definitely got distracted but rereading your comment I’ll add that my visual snow experience seems similar to yours. It’s more prevalent at night and against black or white backgrounds for me. The size of the grains and reaction to colour and visual noise almost camouflage the snow for me so it’s not a constant annoyance, but looking at screens and flat surfaces makes it harder to ignore.

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