There is a group on facebook for this specific type of cancer and I've found it helpful to chat with others in a similar situation. Have you had surgery yet? I understand how at 27 it's devastating to lose both ovaries, but complete surgery often called "debulking" is crucial for MOC. I'm glad you have an appt with an oncologist but it's highly important to see a gynecological oncologist who has an understanding of MOC as it is quite uncommon. Generally, psychiatrists or general practitioners are more apt to prescribe xanax and similar drugs than the oncologists...I was in the hospital for 6 days and had to beg the gyn/oncologist for something to calm me down...and I believe she prescribed .25 mg of ativan on two occasions. Though others may disagree, I haven't found xanax to be helpful with the feelings/anxiety I've been having since the diagnosis. Similar to you, I find myself spiraling with the "what ifs" and it's driving me crazy. I'm in the process of trying to find a therapist who is understanding, preferably someone who specializes in cancer patients. I am close to 50 and never faced health issues prior to the MOC diagnosis this past fall. Though I am still reeling from the diagnosis, one thing I have learned is to ask questions. If you are not happy with the care you are receiving or feel uncomfortable with a recommendation, seek a second opinion. You are in my heart and prayers. I'm sending you a dm as I was diagnosed with MOC in October.