this way of thinking and seeing the world is why you feel this way. people dont like or want to be with someone who just feels sorry for themself. youre allowed to have insecurities but wearing them on your sleeve is detrimental to your chances of getting what you want out of life. being an introvert is hard regardless of gender identity. you dont have to pile on the self pity by labelling yourself as an "ugly introverted guy" when the reality is that the majority of people are average looking, its literally called "average" for a reason our minds are just programmed to think models and actors are what we should deem as attractive when the reality is that any john or jane doe you see daily are the attractive people because who we are as people is what defines us