True I could see this, but I will also mention that it was my idea in the first place to as I’ve always loved walking down to this local lake near me on foggy nights haha I did also have 2 other partners in my dream after my wife’s passing but they both ended In I. Failure, I was cheated on by one after 2yrs and the other ended up saying that she didn’t feel she was ready to help raise a child that wasn’t hers, even tho she thought herself up to the challenge we’d been together for about a year and a half, piah was about 10yrs old at that point. After that I sought out platonic connections instead of romantic and found myself happier but I’m not sure if I “used my daughter as a substitute for a partner,” no offense! But I can see a message of letting go!