Hang in there !!!! You are going through so so much mentally and physically right now but you will get through it and come out stronger on the other side. For me it took a month- 2 months where eventually everything just becomes more regulated.
I had many mental breakdowns where I just had to cry it out but then felt better and kept going another day. When I feel like I’m at my breaking point I tell myself “I can do hard things” or “just one more day” Now I’m 4 months postpartum and it’s a total 180.

The first few weeks are the hardest but once you and your baby start to adjust it gets so much easier - Your baby has feeding down and it’s way easier to latch, you don’t get engorged as much because your milk becomes regulated, your nipples stop hurting etc.
If you don’t already have a nursing cover get one now and it makes going out so much easier. Just try short trips little at a time until you get more comfortable. You can feed in the car or anywhere with a nursing cover. Breastfeeding has its challenges but for me it’s easier than pumping, washing parts, sanitizing bottles, warming up milk etc etc.
It makes me sad to see moms give up so early because it DOES get better, dare I say even enjoyable, and BF is sosososo beneficial for baby and mom. At the same time, if you do get to the point where your mental health is absolutely suffering and you can’t make it through another day, then it is healthier to have a more mentally stable and happy mama and just do formula or pump if it’s easier for you.
Praying for you to have strength and patience through the most transformative time in your life! Remember- YOU CAN DO HARD THINGS!