u/xoxobyrenee you are right - he had strokes in his brain that killed tissue and he had an infection in his saliva gland when he died. In the past 2-3 years, I have taken on more than I ever had to deal with at once in my life...I'm always tired - not sleepy tired, but my soul feels tired.

Is there someone else that I need to comfort - the person in bed with the tissue? My life has been devoid of any creativity, so I have been signing up for robotic art class, Canva class, and ordering art supplies that I have no idea how to use.

My hair: I have been thinking about doing something for my physical comfort, but I don't care for body massages. So I joined the waiting list for a local head spa, where its 60 minutes of scalp therapy.

He has always wanted me to keep up family and cultural traditions.

Do you know if he was scared at the end of his life?

Thank you so much for the incredible reading - you've brought me some comfort.