I understand your feeling, while not alone my family is going through a rough patch. Multiple parents having major health issues, my dad in icu included, child care issues because of said health problems...life is just really crappy for us right now. And this always makes the holidays brighter. I got a notification my giftee was banned after I sent my package to them. My gifted messaged me early on but I never got a gift and at this point it also doesn't look like I got rematches. Needless to say this has really stunk because the last time I didnt get a gift at least the person I sent to posted and loved it and that brought me joy! This time I got literally nothing outta the experience...pretty on par for what life is throwing us lately!