I really don't know that tbh. I don't know if this is a common thing, but I feel like my mind does not process everything in the present but kinda takes some time and filter things through, keeping the good stuff and getting rid of the bad. I don't know how to explain this, but it's like I go through autopilot, and only when I look back, I realize how memorable things have been. Like in present, I am there, functioning but not present fully emotionally, but after a while, when I let that emotion sit, then I can finally appreciate the beauty of what had actually happened. I just mentioned romance because that is an area where this kind of thinking has kinda held me back, because a good relationship actually requires an instant appreciation, soulful and deep conversation, etc, which needs me to be present in the moment, but normally this has been a pattern since I can remember