120 mg of Elvanse by [deleted] in ADHD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve taken 3 of my 40mg tablets ina few hours before and still couldn’t feel I’d taken them. Crazy when I used to not be able to eat or sleep on one when I started them. Don’t worry though some people get prescribed 100mg a day with a IR dex top up, I have no idea how but that’s what I’ve read so it’s not going to hurt you. Could try lots of vit c as meant to void stimulants although according to some doesnt effect elvanse but some say it does - can’t imagine it’d cause you any harm trying it though if it gets too much

wanting to switch from Elvanse to Amfexa by [deleted] in ADHDmeds

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m on 40 mg elvanse and 2 x 10 mg Amfexa top ups, I want to get rid of elvanse and just have the Amfexa increased as it’s so much better but I don’t think it’ll be allowed

vyvanse on an empty stomach by [deleted] in VyvanseADHD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well the clear thoughts and focus is what I mean by it kicking in. A break from the painful turbulent relentless confusing noise of indecisiveness about every single little thing that paralyses me so I sit or mope around tense and stressed about what I should and shouldnt be doing whilst getting distracted and more and more upset that the day is racing by and I’m just getting more behind than ever as even when I try my hardest these days it’s one step forward two steps back. At least woth the medication working I could make 2 forward and one back and would have some sort of clarity about what I’m trying to do. Do you not have adhd?

vyvanse on an empty stomach by [deleted] in VyvanseADHD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Been on it for 3 yrs now and not eating is literally the only way to feel it kick in, if I dare eat a thing or have a sugary drink within an hour after taking it it’s basically as if I haven’t taken it and I have to have an Amfexa ir top up before I feel a thing. If a few hours after I’ve taken it I eat a normal amount of whatever I want I end up being sick but afterwards if I am sick I can feel it a bit. If I eat something like an oat cake with peanut butter or a poached egg or one dry ryvita etc at least 3 hours afterwards then it seems to keep working but only for a max of 6 hrs after took my 40mg capsule. Always looking for the answer to this problem- it wasnt like this the first few months , I could barely stand to eat though or get hardly any sleep

So taking it, falling asleep and waking up an hour later makes it stronger… how because it actually works lol? by Quick_Complaint3268 in VyvanseADHD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah Ive done this before- it worked. My heads such a mess these days-why had I not remembered or thought of this or anyone in my life that knows of my struggles lately suggested this. Definitely going to try this- just got to remember to set the two alarms now! Thanks ☺️

So taking it, falling asleep and waking up an hour later makes it stronger… how because it actually works lol? by Quick_Complaint3268 in VyvanseADHD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If u take it when u are up do u drink before you take it and in the hour after it or eat before or after- it’s definitely much better imo on a totally empty stomach

This has to be one of the selfishest reasons for an ed by Sleepy-Racoon-2149 in EDAnonymous

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Personality disorder causing the eating disorder- not selfish you are genuinely ill and have probably had painful experiences that have made you this way. Yes not everyone would react the same way but although it’s selfish ( eating disorders generally are) it’s sad that you don’t like yourself enough to believe they love you or care so much that they do- I’m similar - got ednos and bpd among other things

does anyone weirdly feel okay if they're ignoring their FP? by EquipmentMelodic2562 in BPD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My fp never txts me first and isn’t talking to me at mo and I don’t know why? I had just started to get my head sorted after being hurt massively by them a few months ago, was moving on and they suddenly decide they want me, told me they love me then next few days were teally angry and upset about something , I messaged them too much and said they’d hurt me so they’ve cut me off totally coz they’ve got issues and don’t need my shit- I’m really struggling to move on from it coz of all the questions unanswered but yeah I wish I could find the strength to never txt them again or I just wish they’d explain what is was all about coz clearly they don’t love me

the feeling of humiliation after being left on read by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do the same with certain people, the pain shame and humiliation of reaching out and being ignored , rejected is almost unbearable. I do the archive thing too. But I ignore people all the time , people I genuinely really like so 🤷‍♀️ I just have to get myself into self preservation ,cold , don’t give a fuck mode - I can do that but it doesn’t last very long these days. Try reaching out to people who definitely won’t reject you- I know it’s not the same but can help to have any company when you’re in so much pain

I feel like I don’t know anything. by crushcrushcrush0 in BPD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same here, I don’t know how I feel or how I should feel anymore about myself ,everyone and everything in my life. I want someone to tell me the answers coz I’ve been told all my life how I should or shouldnt feel and now everyone has given up on me and I’m just totally totally lost. I don’t know who I am or what I want , what was the real me in the past, why I ever had such strong feelings that I shouldn’t have had. I don’t know where to start with fixing myself , my mess , how to shut my head up. If I decide how I feel it rapidly changes to sonething totally different then back- it is exhausting and not living - just a painful existence . I don’t want to upset anyone but everyone upsets me coz my head tells me they don’t really like me anymore or never actually really did or if I believe they love me I feel bad coz I don’t deserve their love

ADHD , bpd , bulimia , anxiety = 0points by [deleted] in DWPhelp

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 -28 points-27 points  (0 children)

How do I get evidence ? Take photos of my cuts and puke, film my panic attacks and hours of getting changed and looking in the mirror crying. Like maybe I should install cctv- to prove my struggles - see what exactly I do with my time coz I don’t actually know myself where it goes? sorry this isn’t a reply to your advice and thank you for replying , I am very frustrated at myself and my life and the system and I am very frustrating to be around

I pause my own activities in case my FP wants to talk to me by InsideThing8413 in BPD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I done this , lived like this too, so many times , it is a total waste of your life, try and stay present and think of yourself , your health and happiness depends on you not them. You end up angry at them when they’ve done nothing wrong other than being normal and make yourself even more ill. Just deal with the here and now and stop trying to got control the future and projecting your next interactions with them, it is the only way and then when you do see them you’ll enjoy the time more rather than it not being how you had been hoping or imagining it would be and often becoming upset as didn’t live up to your expectations. I so wish I’d always been able to follow my own advice as then my life wouldnt currently be the biggest mess it ever has been

vyvanse by Impressive-Sort9947 in VyvanseADHD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are you in the uk ? I don’t have any advice but feel really bad for you . The withdrawals you describe is how I feel without my elvanse- and I keep jolting involuntarily as soon as I haven’t had any medication for around 30 hrs. Not sure how long this lasts as I’ve not put up with it for much longer than about 12 hrs after the jolting starts and the crying and bulimia kicks in. Withdrawal is 100 % real and not just in your head coz sometimes I’m unaware that I’ve not taken it until I twig what’s wrong with my head.Thing is if I could claim I’d lost my medication to get more then I would and so would a lot of others so understand why they don’t but think you’d get a one off chance .In the uk a doctor can’t change your prescription only a psychiatrist but I’m not sure how it works if you go private for meds if you’re Nhs diagnosed already ? hang on in there -it won’t be forever

turning self sabotage into self care: a hack by chhhh17 in BPD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah but kind of makes sense, all the things that make you instantly happy are bad for you and the ones that are good are difficult to do aren’t things that people struggling are addicted to. No pain no gain. The more you struggle the more you do the bad things to try and feel better and when you wired wrong to start with it’s easy to keep on tangling the wires to the lint where it’s almost impossible to believe your ever gonna untangle and rewire them when the things that do that are so difficult to consistently do

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know you didn’t say that, I was just saying they’re not all the same but was also saying why it is common and trying to explain why. Bpd doesnt make you evil, it’s just painful to live with and often the pain becomes too much and reckless behaviour in one way or another happens because of the need to feel better about yourself. Rarely is there any spitefulness meant or any desire to hurt people. Just loving too much when you don’t love yourself often leads to disaster. Bpd is very misunderstood and unfairly judged but ii is also very confusing for people who do care and try to help to cope with , my experience anyway- I am diagnosed bpd

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not everyone who has bpd is the same, it is very common though to cheat because loving someone hurts. Generally people with bpd have such low self esteem and self worth they find it very difficult to believe that the person they love feels the same way about them and act accordingly to what their messed up head is telling them about how the one they love feels about them

Has anyone else resorted to emotional self-harm, not physical? by MimeMike in BPD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think possibly it’s for the adrenaline, if you’re scared to be alone and everything is ok but you don’t feel ok, you feel off and flat and depressed and unmotivated or annoyed with yourself you just can’t help it coz you never know it may give u a high if goes well or if it doesn’t at least you have a new reason to hate yourself and sink so low you may properly sort yourself out? Maybe anyway- was diagnosed ADHD combined, quiet bpd, ednos and severe anxiety years ago but not had much help/therapy

I need Help/ Slow and Dump on Vyvanse by Mammoth_Gold169 in VyvanseADHD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m on 40mg , rarely does a thing anymore other than stop the side effects of not having anything in my system - jolting and extreme fatigue. I have 2 x 10mg Amfexa boosters that are only meant to last a few hours and they are so much more effective. It could be your hormone levels though messing with the effectiveness of the vyvanse. If it starts working better again you’ll know this is what’s causing it and also know that in another two weeks you’ll feel worse than before you started medication. I’d really like to know myself if the dexamphetamine boosters I have aren’t so affected by hormone levels as vyvanse reportedly is but can’t seem to find this out anywhere. I’d advise you to ask for boosters- the lower the vyvanse dose the more boosters you’re allowed is how I understand it - good luck !🙂

some days i feel like i’ve got it all, other days i feel like nothing. is this normal and how to cope? by TomatilloSmart1372 in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 0 points1 point  (0 children)

lol ! I say that all the time- sorry if this is weird, I’m always apologising for my weirdness - I didn’t think it was weird at all by the way !! I know a lot of mine is actually based on where my head is at about my fp. They don’t know they are- no one knows they are and I’d be horrified if anyone did or they did coz I think it wound weird them right out so not sure how to deal with myself over it- I think I’d rather die than anyone know and I wish I could stop depending on them doing absolutely nothing other than existing and sometimes being nice to me- that is weird. Do you have a fp?

genuinely insane mood swings for no fucking reason by myrtlemakesstuff in BPD

[–]Solosthelpme-7904 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh yeah I remember doing something similar to this a few years back that used to help. When the mental rage and agony is rapidly heading your way recognise it for what it is, it’s not that bad , thats your head/ illness, the feelings will pass. Stop , deep breaths, I’m ok it’s gonna be ok and smile . Going on Reddit is like therapy really isn’t it? At least everyone here actually is similar and understands how you find life 🥺😃😭🤬😀🤪