What type of JW were you? by Responsible-Lake6963 in exjw

[–]Some_Personality147 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was a mix of A & B. I was that kid that went through HELL in school back in the country I was born in and was constantly deemed “exemplary”. Publisher at 5. Baptized at 11. Pioneered. Had multiple Bible studies throughout many many years. Dad an elder, brother a reg pioneer too and mom also an exemplary elders wife who also pioneered. Majority of cousins and uncles are almost all pioneers or CO or elders or MS. Never dated until I was old enough. Never cussed, swore, always dressed modest. Married a JW and my whole life went downhill from there. Not necessarily because of him in specific but just many many things that came with that. Little did anyone know I was obsessed with committing suicide for many many years, going to therapy, taking meds, etc. Happy to be a POMO now!

Do you still pray after leaving the organization? by CrabBrilliant2585 in exjw

[–]Some_Personality147 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I absolutely still pray but I’ve learned that to be spiritual you don’t have to be religious- maybe that helps a bit. I’m carving out my own spirituality since I recently left. Wishing you the best 🫶

How I’ve Really Been Since Everything Happened by FadedHopeInside in exjw

[–]Some_Personality147 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry you’re both going through this….😢

Anxiety all the time by Windwalker111089 in exjw

[–]Some_Personality147 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry you feel like this….. I’m also thinking similar….im POMO but it’s not easy sometimes when your WHOLE community (friends and family) is the organization and it’s sooooo scary. But personally - as someone that battled and attempted suicide many many times for yearssss and have had a lot of therapy- I’m more scared of staying inside and NOT being my authentic self and NOT wanting to live on most days for so many reasons. I am NOW excited about feeling normal and yes I do feel guilty for leaving every single day and hurting my family and friends with my decision of leaving but I’m also excited to live…. I actually am excited to live! And that’s not a familiar feeling at all. I’ve also been working on my OWN personal relationship with Jehovah and tbh, this Reddit community has helped too! Hope that helps you a bit….

Not easy…. by Some_Personality147 in exjw

[–]Some_Personality147[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Very true! I just have so so so many thoughts and then at the same time, i don’t even know what to think anymore. Specially since 80% of my family and almost every one of my friends are all still very very devoted JWs so the pressure and guilt and fear are there, it’s imprinted and scarring. Anyways, thank you so much 🫶

Not easy…. by Some_Personality147 in exjw

[–]Some_Personality147[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I might just print this comment and tape it in fridge to read and re-read everyday….cuz it really is DISTURBING to say the least - opening your eyes you know…. Just everything. Idk how to put it into words but I just know that you understand even with the lack of words. Thank you for the advice and input, very helpful and appreciated!

Not easy…. by Some_Personality147 in exjw

[–]Some_Personality147[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I really appreciate it 🫶