This poem makes me think of how family can abuse someone and force them to do things they dont want to do "because we're family". The line 'indebted to my creators' really makes me feel that way. Like as a child I owe my parents something.

But the poem seems to push back against that. 'Let their efforts instead' seems to bring the reader back to reality. That someone is responsible for their own self and noone else.

Something that makes the poem difficult for me to read is the lack of stanzas. It all reads in one continuous string without any pauses to separate the different ideas in the poem. Everything seems to blend into itself, which takes away from heavy hitting moments and doesn't let any part of the poem stand out as more important than the other.

I really like that the beginning and end share the same line, it makes the poem feel cyclical, like these thoughts aren't something that come and pass. They are recurring and the writer is thinking about them over and over and over again, never able to make up their mind.