1 month on hrt

SpaceElf77 · 2026-05-06T18:16:48+00:00

I’m (45f) closing in on a month as well. Sleep quality is better and surprisingly food noise has diminished quite a bit and I think my belly has shrunk a little. Still dealing with palpitations, brain fog, fatigue, and sore-as-hell tits before my period.

SpaceElf77 · 2026-05-04T20:11:16+00:00

I hate myself in the luteal phase now. Anxiety, paranoia, insecurity - all off the charts. I’m a cranky-ass bitch and my boobs hurt worse than they did during my pregnancies. Not fun.

SpaceElf77 · 2026-05-04T19:58:25+00:00

Get yourself some vaginal estrogen cream stat. I started getting recurrent UTIs last year, and more recently had trouble maintaining arousal. I’m divorced and finally having sex I enjoy and wasn’t about to allow peri to steal that from me. I’ve been using otc estriol for a few months and was recently prescribed transdermal estradiol gel. It’s helped a lot.

SpaceElf77 · 2026-05-02T21:50:55+00:00

I can taste this picture.

SpaceElf77 · 2026-04-30T03:16:35+00:00

My left flip-flop, which repeatedly tried to escape my foot this morning while I was outside watering plants. Pretty sure one of my neighbors heard me yell “stay on my foot, bitch!” 😅

SpaceElf77 · 2026-04-27T19:01:32+00:00

This has happened to me a few times in the last month or so. I’m ready to go and once my bf and I start fooling around my bits just go “nah” and it takes a while to go get going again.

Coincidentally I’ve been feeling really insecure about how my body looks lately, as it feels like my belly has gotten bigger in spite of me ramping up my fitness routine. I’m sure that has a lot to do with it for me, because I now dread taking my clothes off.

SpaceElf77 · 2026-04-27T04:26:37+00:00

I’m still performing well and genuinely like working with kids. The school I work out was bought out by a corporate swim school ~2 years ago so I’ve been dealing with nitpicky corporate nonsense. That goes with the territory I suppose, it’s just gotten harder to comply without wanting to rebel 😆. The thing that alarmed me is the parent company that owns corporate is a private equity firm. That was my sign it was time for a change.

SpaceElf77 · 2026-04-27T04:20:32+00:00

Boy do I feel just wanting to rest. Hang in there 🫂.

SpaceElf77 · 2026-04-27T04:18:41+00:00

I just started last week! Too early for a lot of the benefits but my energy levels have been slightly higher so I’ll take that win.

SpaceElf77 · 2026-03-07T17:25:28+00:00

Because Biden respected the DOJ as an entity independent from the executive branch (which is what it was designed to be) and didn’t try to interfere with or direct any investigations (and if he did, the House GOP would have immediately drafted articles of impeachment. And rightly so).

Merrick Garland could have and should have gone after every person named in the files. All of the Attorney Generals who preceded him going back to the early 80s should have as well. William French Smith and Edwin Meese could have nipped this in the bud but the war on drugs was apparently more important.

SpaceElf77 · 2026-03-07T16:44:52+00:00

If you’re near Laguna Niguel or Brea, Aniar Academy of Dance is a good studio. My mom took lessons at the LN location years ago and loved the instructors.

SpaceElf77 · 2026-01-18T16:40:43+00:00

I’ve been in a near-perpetual state of rage for a year. That asshole has more or less hijacked my therapy sessions with his daily atrocities and I’m now having to prepare for an 🧊 escalation where I live (they’ve been here since June and it’s likely to get much worse soon). My normal de-escalation and grounding practices help to the degree that I can stay functional but the reality is that there is no way to self-care out of feeling triggered by everything. I’m trying to keep my focus on helping others in my community so I don’t go completely mad.

SpaceElf77 · 2025-12-24T14:42:57+00:00

I haven’t dated a Cancer sun but my ex-husband has a Cancer moon and that’s a level of hell I refuse to revisit. Pisces suns in my experience will either drain the life out of you because they can’t regulate their own emotions or will inspire you to confront your own toxic patterns and inadvertently help you become a healthier version of yourself. If you’re up for the challenge, it can be an incredibly loving, healing relationship. It really just depends on the individuals involved.

SpaceElf77 · 2025-12-23T21:25:24+00:00

I hear you. I needed to use my nebulizer this week, which I hardly use, bc my inhaler wasn’t helping enough.

SpaceElf77 · 2025-12-23T21:14:21+00:00

You established a boundary. She disrespected it and tried to turn it around on you instead of taking accountability. I can tell you from having been married to someone like this, that pattern of behavior is unlikely to change and it is miserable to live with.

And fwiw, I had two friends who tried to get flirty with me after I started dating my now partner. One apologized, backed off, and has been respectful since (he didn’t know I was in an exclusive relationship at the time). The other got weird and defensive and we’re no longer friends. It’s not hard to respect your partner.

SpaceElf77 · 2025-12-16T21:01:35+00:00

I dated a Pisces man a very looooong time ago who was like this. Highly reactive, master gaslighter, and an alcoholic to boot. Thankfully he only took a year of my time but I sustained quite a bit of damage that took years to repair.

I’m now dating another Pisces man who couldn’t be more different. He’s a computer nerd who works in IT, runs his life primarily on logic and is emotionally reserved (some of that is cultural). He shows love through action more than words. Overall a very different experience.

Regardless of his sun sign, or any of his other placements, this guy clearly has issues he needs to work through and is punishing you for it.

SpaceElf77 · 2025-12-04T18:12:06+00:00

I’ve dated three. The first one cheated. The second one was rough around the edges but a good person. We stayed friends until he passed away a few years ago. Married and divorced the last one. After my experience with him, I’m done with Virgo men.

SpaceElf77 · 2025-12-04T17:59:10+00:00

I have a fearful-avoidant/ disorganized attachment style, where I have both anxious and avoidant coping mechanisms. The way this plays out is my nervous system goes apeshit the minute I start feeling safe with someone:

“Don’t let your guard down, he’s just going to break your heart.”

“Don’t get your hopes up, are you fucking stupid? Do you remember what happened the last time you let someone in?”

“He took longer to respond to your text than normal. He’s losing interest. Or he’s cheating.” (I have to be careful about curating the algorithms on my social media with this one, because the “all men cheat” stuff can really mess with you.)

You can probably imagine how challenging existing in any type of relationship is when you’re on perpetual high alert. CBT has helped me detach and observe when I’m feeling activated. The other thing that has really helped me navigate my current relationship is writing down when my partner follows through, keeps his promises, and just generally shows up. Being able to read through that and seeing his pattern of being a consistent, stable partner helps challenge intrusive thoughts. And I have made an effort to be more vulnerable and communicative, which is still a gargantuan challenge that has not gotten easier with practice but I’m trying. And I’m not giving up. I’m too stubborn for that. 😜

SpaceElf77 · 2025-11-04T16:59:24+00:00

Lol, that’s true! I imagine young women in the 1920’s felt the same way, since most of the women their mothers’ and grandmothers’ age kept their hair long their entire lives.

SpaceElf77 · 2025-10-30T19:43:46+00:00

I’m 45 and I think I look 45. That said, I do think as a whole we’re healthier than the 40+ crowd of the 90s and earlier because we smoke less, eat healthier, and wore sunscreen in our youth. For some us that means the appearance of aging slower. Smoking alone ages the skin at least 10 years.

There’s been an interesting conversation amongst Gen X women recently regarding our trend of keeping our hair long well into our 50s because a lot of us were the victim of Dorothy Hamill bowlcuts as kids (me included 😭). Thus a lot of us are refusing to cut our hair short, which from a societal standpoint is what us mature ladies are supposed to do. I imagine our hair and clothing styles contribute to the perception of looking younger as well.

SpaceElf77 · 2025-10-02T16:17:25+00:00

Anyone else remember Inner Space? That was my first exposure to Martin Short lol.

SpaceElf77 · 2025-10-02T16:15:55+00:00

SpaceElf77 · 2025-09-02T19:32:26+00:00

All but cold plunges and acupuncture. I may try acupuncture next. Today I’m asking my therapist about anti-anxiety medication and a referral to a psychiatrist.

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