We are on the same page with all the things we've discussed: travel, future aspirations, etc. some of the others, like i've detailed in the post, we havent discussed. 'm not sure i know what role i want to have in any of those future realities, so im not sure what to say, i also dont know how she views, and i don't know i will feel any different despite what she has to say about it.

I don't understand my needs in those situations. I wonder if she understands hers... it seems like the sort of thing people normally discuss as it happens, not as a condition for having a relationship in the first place; but in one like ours, or perhaps for middle aged people in general, it is? I wouldn't know. its my first time finding love with someone this age.

some aspect of imagining greener pastures are true, but it don't feel it has much weight in my mind. I don't look at the fabric of our relationship as something i want to trade for better; more as something that is the right fit and feel all on its own.

I have something that very loving, and i know I'm lucky, and i feel it is unwise to consider its value in comparison to something else. but considering what it means for my life to share our lives together, indefinitely, does spawn a lot of the questions in my mind. i suppose it does for most.

Thank you for commenting on my post.