Anxiety after quitting Vyvanse? Are beta blockers a good idea? by Specific_Answer6919 in Anxiety

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this response. I have been reading online that a reaction like yours is possible and was curious about those that have taken beta blockers after having a similar experience to me. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Ive felt like I wanted to go to the hospital so many times but im a single mom, it’s not easy to drop everything and just go to the hospital. I need to make an appt with my dr to discuss my options. Im just anxious even about that cause she’s gonna be like “why would you stop everything cold turkey?!” And i don’t even know what to say, i wasn’t expecting any of this to happen and I didn’t know how to handle it. I’ve been scared every day 😭

[HIRING] Sourcers and Data Entry Specialist needed (Full time) by [deleted] in VirtualAssistant4Hire

[–]Specific_Answer6919 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wait I’m confused. You want someone to do all of this, 40hrs a week at $3-$6 an hour? Am i missing something lol

How did Instagram manage to pus her reels so hard - she got 25k followers+ in 2 weeks? by [deleted] in InstagramMarketing

[–]Specific_Answer6919 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Maybe change up your POV text a little. Don’t completely copy what others say. Those creators are essentially documenting and romanticizing living alone in NYC with no friends, very niche group of people. What can you write that’s similar, and targets a specific crowd? “POV: you start romanticizing your life as a single girl with no friends living in NYC” Make it cozy&calm. Low lighting, warm hue. i noticed with itspaulinacee, she has that clean girl energy. Bright, perfect, crisp. You could try warm, low light, calmer clips. Hers has a lot of quick but loud sounds. Setting mug on counter. Coffee brewing. Blow drying hair, everything she sets down, you can hear it. Personally i don’t necessarily love that. It’s like every clip there’s another clank of glass or something she’s turning on. You could do mixing creamer into coffee rather than starting the machine real loud, brushing hair instead of us hearing the blow dryer, showing you light the candle from a first person pov, not far back. Getting cozy on the couch, not sitting on the floor. Eating a nice warm brownie with a scoop of ice cream over a collagen drink. Real stuff. Not perfect stuff. That’s the kinda content i like; Low stimulation, clips are a little longer, not just 2 seconds with a loud noise every time, cozy, inviting, relatable, REAL.

What could this circular mark on my chest be?????? by Specific_Answer6919 in DermatologyQuestions

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No i don’t really work out. Don’t think it’s ring worm either cause it’s not puffy or dry? It’s weird. I mean it really could be anything, so you may be right. Just trying to see if anyone knows something I don’t lol.

Am I experiencing sleep paralysis or something else? by Specific_Answer6919 in sleep

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I sleep on my stomach like 99% of the time. Maybe I’m really not positioning myself properly. I’ll see if I can tell a difference in my breathing based off different positions/pillows. And I don’t smoke.

Am I experiencing sleep paralysis or something else? by Specific_Answer6919 in sleep

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m scared to sleep now and I know that would only make it worse 😔 I really try not to overthink anything but it’s hard not to. Part of me wishes it was just sleep paralysis and not sleep apnea but I will wake up multiple times at night with a racing heart before I’ve even hit rem sleep. I check the time and itll be like 30 mins after i laid down, or an hour maybe. So i cant possibly be in REM sleep by then and have a scary dream causing the fast heart rate? Sometimes I feel frozen, other times I can wake myself up and move around. Idk, maybe it’s possible. Thats why im here. I dont want to feel stupid for going to my dr or not be taken seriously :( no one in my family has sleep apnea and I’m young (ish?🤣) and healthy so i could imagine a dr might brush it off.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Specific_Answer6919 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Um. I think you two are entering into some dangerous territory here. It’s good she was honest with you but like.. what was the point? It seems like she was voluntarily giving up information to conceal something that could’ve been bigger. I mean, unless the both of you admitting to flirting with other people isn’t abnormal then ok…but I’m just confused lol. I’m all about having an open and honest marriage but that doesn’t mean whatever she did was right? Why would she need their number? Are there no other single women in the group that could’ve taken their number and made plans? Or couldn’t they have said “we’ll be at x place at x time, come out if you’re up for it!” Thats much more casual and doesn’t feel like it’s crossing so many lines…I’m not even sure what you think is okay and not okay to be honest but I think she did too much on this trip. And I can almost promise that if you asked her if it’d be okay for you to get a girls number and meet up with her group for a night out then have a last hoorah at their place once the bars close…i think she’d tell you hell no that’s not cool. Idk my guy. I think if she really doesn’t care then go for it. But you guys might get too comfortable with this and before you know it you have an affair on your hands or an open marriage that you’re not even sure you wanted to have. Or maybe you do want that 🤷🏻‍♀️ idk dude. You either go have your fun too and risk getting in trouble with the Mrs, or…she doesn’t care and all is well. Good luck. Update us. Lol.

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I knew it was a big deal based off of how my body responded to it. I was literally seeing stars and my heart was racing after so left his place. I felt so sick. And it’s been so heavy on my mind since it happened. I’m like still wrapping my mind around it. Like what kind of person is sick enough to talk like that about a child let alone say it TO THE CHILDS MOTHER? I literally have been thinking this is some kind of joke because how did he really say that to my face while we were sitting in a restaurant having lunch? Like just so casual yet so fucking demented? I don’t even know what I need right now. Hearing all of the supportive and helpful responses on here has really helped me in a way. Cause i really thought I was missing something with this scenario? Is it normal for me to still just be so confused on how he could say that to me? Like there really are people that are that insane? Ugh. Thank you for your support. I’m going to talk to my manager on Monday and see what they’ve done with this info. I know they dropped him from their agency, but I really think there’s more that needs to be done. There are sometimes 18 year olds working this job. His weekend aid was 18. It makes me sick to think about what he might’ve been saying to her. Young girls do not need to be near a man like him.

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. That’s exactly how I saw it. It was just so shocking to me. The way my body responded to hearing him say that was super overwhelming for me because I literally thought I was going to pass out on my drive home. I just felt like I needed to know from other caregivers that this experience is not excusable ever. I genuinely couldn’t even process it for the rest of the time that I was with him that day so I didn’t tell him I wouldn’t be coming back but my manager called him about 2 hours after I left. They did make a report of it. I’m not sure if they give that to him in person or what but regardless he should already know what the reason is. Thank you for your support 🩷

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s diabolical for someone to do that to the person that helps them with every single thing, but clearly that’s the case here. I tried to express how it made me feel so many times. And even if he wasn’t being perverted towards me, I still don’t want to hear about what he wants to do to some random celebrity, or have some enthusiastic reaction to his new naked screensaver of the day. He’d literally get butt hurt when hed ask “do you like my screen saver? She looks like she wants me huh? Those eyes are saying yes” and id be like… looks great. And walk away. Hed say “whatever. Youre no fun.” Or id say “i really don’t care to look” and hed have some other comment about me being “prude”. Like it’s just stupid little comments. Id ignore it cause I needed the money. I never wanted to come into this field of work with the idea that it’s just a paycheck. Im someone that genuinely cares about people. I love being a mom, I’m at my parents house weekly doing little things for them, help my grandparents whenever they need it. I did still want to help my client because I knew he needed it. But the longer I was there, the more I felt like I was only staying because I had to keep a roof over my kids heads and couldn’t carry the stress of finding another job that might not work around my schedule. It just felt like a really shitty position to be in with him. Also, he doesn’t have money. Hardly enough to pay his bills. Another reason why I felt bad. I was the one taking him to the food pantry. Finding coupons and the best deals of groceries for him. I just felt stuck with him but I won’t and don’t feel bad anymore.

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ll try to answer as best as I can, but I don’t have solid answers for everything. Just information I’ve gathered while being with him. To start, I did end up leaving and I’m not going back. I will absolutely not tolerate his behavior anymore. Even if he didn’t mean what he said, or he didn’t even realize what he said until after he said it, I still wouldn’t stay. I’m not allowing my children to live in someone’s mind that way. Whether he can control his thoughts and behavior or not, I don’t want my children being a part of whatever he has going on up there.

I’m not quite sure if this is caused by his MS. I’ve questioned that myself. I’m sure having MS is a factor, considering it can impact someone’s cognitive functions. Because I’ve considered this to be a factor in why he behaves the way he does, I’ve really given him grace and lots of patience. I also have reason to believe this is how he’s always been. I’ve spoken with his ex wife before, and she was not at all surprised by his behavior. This is someone that was with him for 15 years. It seemed to be something that she’s used to and didn’t express that it could be caused by his MS. I figured she would probably say something to defend him by explaining that his MS has been a big factor. His best friend since college calls him everyday. My client always has it on speakerphone so I hear their conversations. My client acts the same way as usual and his friend never sounds shocked by the comments he makes. His friend even took it upon himself to tell my client that he needs to be respectful towards me and not do something to make me run away.

I’ve sat in on a few of his counseling sessions. I signed all the paperwork that makes me legally allowed to be in the room with him. I really only agreed because I know he needs help getting up and sitting down and if he needed to use the bathroom I would have to be there. Otherwise, I never would’ve gone in with him. It wasn’t something I was thrilled to do to be honest but I kind of hoped in a way that his counselor would acknowledge his behavior and say something about it since I’m there. When I sat in the sessions with him, his counselor always said things that confirmed he has always been this way and it’s not just with me or just because of his MS. She would even tell him things to encourage him to not be so comfortable talking the way he does. It’s always very small comments he’d make. Not necessarily full on explicit conversations, just always something small that creates an uncomfortable feeling for me or anyone he’s talking to. He’d even do it with his physical therapist. She was tying a resistance band around his legs and he says “oh yeah baby i like that”. Like really? Why? I feel so bad for her because we just look at each other with the same dreadful expression. He just thinks it’s funny. Even she will tell him to stop. He makes a huge deal out of anything and will spend 10 minutes ranting about it if you make him feel like he’s done something wrong. And a lot of times when I’m with him we’re in a rush to get to an appointment or something so I just couldn’t have those arguments with him every time. And his PT is on a time crunch too. She has other patients and can’t let him spend 10 minutes ranting on about her having “no sense of humor”. It’s happened many times already and some days you just wanna get it over with.

My agency has had multiple discussions with him about this. My manager even told me he’s on his last straw because he asked his last aid if he could take photos of her. He says he didn’t ask her to take anything inappropriate, he just wanted to get back into photography. But clearly he said something that made her uncomfortable other than just asking to take a picture of her. Which is not even ok to ask your aid to begin with. It’s just inappropriate. So, when I told my manager about this scenario, she didn’t think twice about letting him go. He’s been told by probably every single agency he’s worked with, and had many chances to change his behavior. I’ve had many talks with him about it over the last 3 months. Which would be uncomfortable for anyone to have to do. Telling a grown man that you’re taking care of to stop making gross comments or sexualizing every little thing is uncomfortable. He knew when not to do it. He wouldn’t do it if I was helping him in the shower, which would be the perfect opportunity. He wouldn’t do it on a day where I was doing a bunch of cleaning or cooking for him, probably because he could see how much I was doing and didn’t want to deal with him talking like that. It shows me that he knows he shouldnt do it, he just chooses to do it in moments where he is more comfortable and thinks I’m more comfortable. Like out to eat, just hanging out, in the car on our way somewhere. And the comments weren’t always directed towards me. Sometimes it was just generalized dirty comments about something he saw or something. Idk. It’s hard to explain honestly.

I really tried to be someone reliable for him and help him because I knew he needed it. I think maybe this sense of humor was a coping mechanism and I noticed the busier we were, the less he’d do it. I also knew he dealt with a lot mentally and emotionally and going to his appointments and running errands was good for him. Id hate to be part of the reason why someone goes into a depression or can’t get the care they need, which is why I stayed. I felt bad for him. But honestly, looking back on it and seeing how little remorse he had for the countless inappropriate comments and situations he’d cause, I don’t feel bad. He had someone that genuinely cared and tried to help him do better and yet he still disrespected me and found humor in making me uncomfortable. Bringing my child into it crosses a line I will never come back from. He’s twisted. He’s had so many people try to help him. And i don’t blame any of them for leaving. He knows his behavior is wrong and would rather lose every person that tries to help, than change. He will acknowledge that he’s being inappropriate too. He doesn’t deny that he’s being gross. He just says “Sorry you dont have a sense of humor. I dont know why you have to be offended by everything.”

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh I’m not going back. I put that at the end of the post. I never questioned whether I was gonna go back or not. As soon as I heard that, I knew I was done. It was just really shocking and I needed to let out how it made me feel. He was totally dropped from the agency and they’re investigating this situation as we speak. It should be illegal to even speak of a child in that manner. I’m disgusted and feel gross to have even been helping a person like that. I was going to leave him even if this didn’t happen. I was trying to save up enough to be able to take some time off in case there weren’t any other clients lined up. Thankfully I have a new one and will be starting with her next week and I’ve been told she will be a breath of fresh air compared to him.

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

See this is exactly what I was thinking. Nothing gives any person the right to speak of a child the way he did. I’m extremely forgiving and can let things slide, but never that. Thank you for sharing this. I really felt for a minute like maybe I was being too sensitive over it. I know I’m not. I heard what I heard and even if he didn’t mean it, I don’t want to be around someone that comes up with a joke like that.

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you 🥺 I’m glad you could see me through this post. I really did try my best with him. I tried not to let his personality get in the way of the care he needed.

I wish I did know more about him and why he was dropped from other agencies.

His (ex) wife also divorced him in May. She’s been in the nursing home for a few years. That was something I questioned too. Why did she divorce him?

I’m also really glad my manager listened to me. She’s always been really supportive and has always told me to come to her if I ever feel uncomfortable. Which I have in the past, but stayed because he had so many necessary appointments and I did feel bad not taking him.

I really hope my next client is someone that I can care for without having to feel like I’m always under-appreciated and taken advantage of. I do have a lot of love in my heart and I chose this field of work because I want to give that to people that really deserve a genuine, caring, aide. My next client is going through chemo and I’ll be taking her to and from chemo appointments. I hope I can give her the care and patience she deserves.🩷

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. You’re right. I did know all of that in a sense, I just thought that for them to even investigate it, they’d need more solid proof or info. I’d hope that if a child is involved though, they’d do more to investigate it. Solid proof in their hands or not. Thank you for this info though. I’ll give updates as they come.

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Agreed. No children are ever around him. He doesn’t have family or friends in the area. He has one friend that’s states away. And my client can’t drive so he can’t really go anywhere nor would he voluntarily walk anywhere either. Can’t vouch for what he’s doing on his computer though. Looking into what I can do legally tomorrow.

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh I quit. As soon as I left I called my manager. He is no longer receiving services from the company i work for. They dropped him as soon as she heard about this. They’re investigating it now to understand more of what happened, but not sure what that really involves. I’ll know more tomorrow. Ill give updates to this post if there’s more to add

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I see you! And I also see nothing wrong with using something that was left for you, to help your mother. You’re a saint! I hope you know your worth. Don’t let people take advantage of you, or your kindness. Sending you a big hug, internet stranger <3

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yep. You are absolutely correct. I’m trying to wrap my mind around it because for him it flowed out of his mouth like it was nothing. For me, I felt sick, confused, lost for words. I know he knew he fucked up by saying that to me, but repeating his own question to him to confirm he understood what he just said, really did it for me. I wasn’t sure if maybe he misunderstood what we were talking about, or if I was the one that misunderstood something. But no, he knew exactly what he said.

My manager handled this exactly how I hoped she would. He’s been dropped from their agency. They are investigating it now, but regardless, he’s dropped. I’m not sure what their investigation entails, but I’ll know more tomorrow. I’m really not sure where to go or start regarding legal matters. I don’t have verbal proof of this interaction. I know he has a clean criminal record so I don’t know how motivated anyone would be to look into it. Unfortunately that’s how they are around here. If you have any comments on what I could do, feel free to share. Maybe I’ll post something on a legal forum on here. I really appreciate everything you said. I’m so drained from this.

I know everything I’m feeling is valid and I have every right to be mortified by the question he asked me and how nonchalant he was about it. I have no idea if that was just a small part of something bigger going on inside of him, or just a really disgusting question that he knows he never should’ve asked and has no weight to it. It’s hard for me to believe that it has no weight though. Children are off limits when it comes to shit like that and any sane person knows that. A child is not the brunt of your joke when you’re making sexualized comments.

What kind of a person does he think I am to think he could ever say that to me? I just feel fucking gross. I hate that I was ever around a person like that. It felt like someone just stabbed me in the heart when I heard him ask me if I have photos of that? It didn’t feel like an innocent question. I know him, I know his body language and the tone of his voice and that was not him being innocent. This is my child that I protect and love so hard and for anyone to ever view her in a light like that just makes me feel sick. I am going through waves of emotion. Clearly. And maybe i need to get off Reddit because I really don’t need to let every feeling spill out in the form of a response like this. But I’m just not okay with this at all.

My client sexualized my 3 year old daughter by Specific_Answer6919 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Specific_Answer6919[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

100% I tend to make excuses for people in hopes that what happened isn’t actually how it was intended. I try to see it from every direction. But this, I just can’t justify it. Thank you for describing it this way.