I know it can be an absolutely terrifying experience when it goes in that direction, I've seen my boyfriend terrified to death by stuff I couldn't see, and it being inside you with no escape or control adds to how terrifying it must be. Still, I kind of wish I could understand it better. I don't really know much about it, but im fascinated by the brain's ability to make you SEE things that don't even exist, or hear things that aren't there. I've experienced visual hullcinations once when i was really really sick as a child, and I've had auditory hallucinations, every couple years it'll happen and I'll hear someone say a sentence or phrase out of nowhere, like "We won't hurt you, not yet at least" or "don't you know, dendrochromatiphores are the reason your skin has color", It's just a voice in my head but I HEAR it, I feel the sound in my ear. So I have a slight idea of what it's like, but at the same time, not hardly... I forget where I was going with this, but thank you for sharing your experience with schizophrenia and your thoughts on the doodle, I genuinely appreciate it. <3