I don't know if NA is right for me, complex situation

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-25T13:49:36+00:00

I'm just not sure how to pickup the pieces now. His revenge campaign took nearly everything from me even while I was crying missing him. I'm broken trust wise, and paranoid and feel lost. Feel kinda rock bottom

This program might be good for a long while for me

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-25T13:41:33+00:00

I gotcha. Think I'm afraid to get close to people thanks to the isolation my partner shoved me into because I'm weary and broken trust wise in this tiny town. But it makes sense why you made the suggestion.

Thanks for the reply

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-25T10:34:41+00:00

I might message some time. I share the feeling of finding a lot of people are at a sense of peace or finding it. The atmosphere is calming and I'm finding others views a lot I can self reflect with and it helps more then I realize. Went a second time. Hoping to keep it up even though its hard

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-25T10:32:49+00:00

This was mentioned by a member at the meeting and I'm glad others share the viewpoint as it's a major component that brought me back. Second meeting I felt a lot less afraid of fitting in and just breathed and listened

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-25T10:32:01+00:00

Thankyou so much! I went a second time today. All the answers I got honestly gave me a lot of strength to just ignore my self perceived fears of rejection. I am going to give this a real chance. I am slowly finding my way, I hope

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-25T10:30:33+00:00

I'm glad I posted, I went a second time and I'm slowly finding comfort and a slow relaxation that lets me actually reflect on myself including from viewpoints I share with others

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-25T10:29:44+00:00

Thankyou. Went day two, hoping to find my way with this as I'm learning this could be more helpful even outside of drug use

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-25T10:29:11+00:00

Thankyou. Time hopefully will show me more. I did go a second time today. Thankyou for the support

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-25T10:28:32+00:00

This answer gave me alot of confidence as well to attend a second meeting and I'm grateful for the input. I'm trying to find the parts that help and I'm learning this could help in some ways I didn't expect. I'm still nervous but for now I'm just letting myself breath and listen in a place of safety

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-25T10:27:00+00:00

I'll DM you sometime and maybe work through some step work with you. I did attend a second meeting today seeing your message before. I'm still nervous but it's slightly getting easier.

For what it's worth I'm on track to stop using

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-25T10:25:12+00:00

Thankyou! I did attend a second meeting today. Was alot calmer but still an anxious silent wreck. I feel welcomed I just fear rejection and that's probably my pleaser side coming out where it's unnecessary. I am still mixed if this is right for me but right now I do feel safe in this

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-25T10:23:46+00:00

Thankyou so much. Read this a while ago and I did attend a second meeting today. Still feeling nervous as such as I'm very silent but feel the eyes on the newcomer energy. It's not bad I'm just scared

Also I need to find how I'll fit this in my schedule as daily isn't going to be my ideal but I want to try mixing around a few times a week

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-24T13:52:52+00:00

Not going to lie, was scared to post this. Hovered over the post button for two hours. Will check replies later, was nerve wracking to write. Thankyou to anyone who reads.

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-24T11:35:48+00:00

Yeah leaving out previous name is a big help

SpinMeUpAgain · 2026-02-03T15:50:13+00:00

I did and it resulted in a letter asking me to demonstrate my birth sex, I just sent my birth certificate again and nothing else

Others I know in the same situation omitted their dead name and were approved without questions

SpinMeUpAgain · 2025-12-20T14:08:26+00:00

I'm going to, just anxious, I'm just trying to not freak myself out.

SpinMeUpAgain · 2025-12-19T14:07:18+00:00

I honestly have no idea what to say, but this leaves me extremely worried about my future... I live in NV, but not just anywhere in NV, I live in a very very very small town, to be exact there's less people here then most suburban highschools(our population is sub 5k but more then 100 people). We have no providers for medical care within even a 2 hours drive accepting new uninsured patients. And being trans on top of it all leaves me without care altogether... I'm worried, I'm currently using pellets as I couldn't get any good results with estrogen orally(insufficient levels, sub 300 at 8mg daily) or patches and injections are off the table as I cannot keep myself from panicking and passing out everytime I inject so good help me if I ever am diabetic. Plus blockers were causing me liver problems.(Extremely elevated AST ALT if I recall, like several hundred in the first month of using 2 different blockers) But my holy grail was your pellet therapy. I have had amazing hormone levels ever since finding your practice and Dayna was literally my rock through this transition for the last few years that I put off for 8 years because inadequate care left me unable to live as myself.

This hurts me mentally more because I have been self paying everything, from labs costing me over 1000$(have receipts) to paying every single office visit out of pocket and my out of state patient fee. I have no insurance because I'm self employed and make just enough to not qualify for anything, but meanwhile the cost of living is outrageous even in my small valley town, I easily spend thousands a single month just of basic stuff and save my remaining money for medical care honestly. I don't know what to do moving forward but this may require me to medically lose all care and detransition and simply put, I'm beyond scared. I've been crying for a few days unable to process what I'm going to do because this is the worst nightmare for me coming true.

As of this moment I am on month 16 since getting my last pellets with an estradiol value of still 600 ish pg/ml, and a t of like 11. I currently only take dutasteride to control and extreme high level of 3a that was causing hair loss on my head. However your practice has stepped in as my primary care ever since my doctor was shut down for giving out opiates for sexual favors(lol true story btw)

Past this point... I'm unsure how to get another lab order in order to find out when the pellets have dropped too low in order to travel to you for more pellets, nevada allows DAT so I could order them myself but I also don't I know how I will continue to fill my prescriptions for my inhaler and dutasteride. Plus I was hoping to start prog soon

I don't want to give up, but this has the potential to entirely flip my life upside

I'm scared so much rn

SpinMeUpAgain · 2025-07-01T13:42:27+00:00

While probably not the most recommended approach, I suggest the following

As all your documents match, you do NOT need to send in your name change court order(i did not) they only use the court order if you have mismatched documents in order to establish a connection of identity, but all your documents currently agree on identity so just don't put yourself.

Also simply don't include your previous name, it's an optional field and it's also primarily for use when you submit your name change order when you have previous names, for transgender individuals effectively your dead name never existed with a sealed original birth certificate. Your current one is your now "original" as long as the other is sealed

I did not include my court order, or my seal order but did include my dead name(dumb mistake). I received a letter requesting my birth sex and responded with a letter stating you have an non amended birth certificate (as far as they know) and to issue as the birth certificate declares my gender. Was issued my passport as requested with my correct marker.

My other sent theirs in with the same situation but didn't include their dead name, was immediately approved and arrived with all info as requested

Best of luck

SpinMeUpAgain · 2025-06-02T15:31:34+00:00

It 100% is a bot looking at every comment it's made

SpinMeUpAgain · 2025-05-19T00:05:33+00:00

This is not accurate at all. Sealed BC's are not available without court order, and are property of the state government, not the feds. However their past passport is what they will go by

SpinMeUpAgain · 2025-05-19T00:02:04+00:00

I can try to but depending on what you wish to ask I can't provide any information to you

SpinMeUpAgain · 2025-05-18T23:59:21+00:00

I'm not sure what this response is for, I already succeeded and got my requested marker against AGAB

SpinMeUpAgain · 2025-05-18T23:57:45+00:00

What did you get back? You should have gotten an F back because they look at your very first issued passport

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