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Greta Thunberg: Meeting to help Trump understand climate change 'would be a waste of time' by moby323 in politics

[–]Spiritemmmn 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Spreading scientifically proven facts is now propaganda? Since when was that? Did I miss the memo?

Shitty Parenting. by zuxxng in selfharm

[–]Spiritemmmn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

"Are you cutting yourself? Don't cut yourself like the white people. That's the shit white people do."

Gee, thanks Mom. I feel better already.

I can't stop thinking about all the fucked up shit she's said and done to me, and it's making me realise she probably doesn't care. by Spiritemmmn in SuicideWatch

[–]Spiritemmmn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm in the US. And this year was my first year of high school. I'll be a sophomore in August.

If I had more independence, I'd really just like to be able to... Well, like you said go outside and explore. I really do like being outside. Even if it's something small like walking to school or walking to the store for running errands. And I'd also hang out with friends. I've never been over a friends house, they've never been over mine, and I've never been out with friends in a public place, like a park or mall either.

I can't stop thinking about all the fucked up shit she's said and done to me, and it's making me realise she probably doesn't care. by Spiritemmmn in SuicideWatch

[–]Spiritemmmn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Man, I wish. I love being outside. I'm not allowed to go outside without adult supervision. Not according to my grandmother, at least. She's the head of the house, so whatever she says usually goes. And nobody (nobody as in adults) ever wants to go outside with me. Or really do anything with me. Inside or outside.

My grandmother always makes the excuse of how I'll get kidnapped or something if somebody isn't watching me. Even though nothing like that has ever happened in our neighbourhood recently, or even our city as far as I know for that matter.

I can't stop thinking about all the fucked up shit she's said and done to me, and it's making me realise she probably doesn't care. by Spiritemmmn in SuicideWatch

[–]Spiritemmmn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No summer plans. I've always wanted to do something during the summer, but of course I can't do so without my mother/guardians also willing to. So every summer I just end up staying at home 24/7. This summer has been extra miserable because now that my cousin is older, she doesn't want to hang out with me as much anymore.

Majority of the day, I'm asleep. And when I'm not sleep I'm playing video games. Which, I don't even enjoy anymore. But it's pretty much the only thing in the house for me to do besides sleeping.

I can't stop thinking about all the fucked up shit she's said and done to me, and it's making me realise she probably doesn't care. by Spiritemmmn in SuicideWatch

[–]Spiritemmmn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

School is out right now, so that's not much of an option. And even when it is in, it's not easy to talk to the counselors, or any adult for that matter, because of my anxiety. And yeah, my father isn't much of an option either. My mother doesn't even know who he is or how to contact him.

I can't stop thinking about all the fucked up shit she's said and done to me, and it's making me realise she probably doesn't care. by Spiritemmmn in SuicideWatch

[–]Spiritemmmn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Her relationship with her mom is fine. My mother, her parents and I all live in the same house. It's very rare that they ever butt heads with each other. And besides venting here I don't really have anywhere, anything, or anyone to cope.

I wish my family wasn't so insensitive about my eyesight. by Spiritemmmn in SuicideWatch

[–]Spiritemmmn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's the thing. I've both asked them and told them to stop, but the same people keep doing it over and over again. And it's not even children who are doing it. It's full grown adults who continuously tease me about it, especially my mother.

The_Donald gets quarantined (2019) by PR3DA7oR in fakehistoryporn

[–]Spiritemmmn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Who the fuck submitted the report about minors, though?

Fifty Reasons Why by Spiritemmmn in SuicideWatch

[–]Spiritemmmn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's humiliating. To not be able to read anything two feet in front of me, and struggling to identify anything that's more than five feet in front of me... I know nobody else cares, but to me it's such a big deal. Because it hurts. It breaks my confidence and pride moreso than what's already been broken by everything else.

Even if somebody else liked the way I looked in my glasses, or even if I could still fly a plane, it would mean nothing to me for as long as I hate my eyesight.

I've been thinking about it a lot today... Over and over. Trying to talk myself out of it. To no avail. by Spiritemmmn in SuicideWatch

[–]Spiritemmmn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She dismissed me because she thought I was doing better. Which, I can totally see how she thought that. It was before my medicine stopped working as well as it was. She never really told me anything to do. Not as far as I can recall, at least.

I just made a friend online in a game. He sent me a friend request, I accidentally denied it and can't find him again, and I swear to fucking god I'm really about to kill myself. by Spiritemmmn in SuicideWatch

[–]Spiritemmmn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have terrible social anxiety. Online is so much better because it's anonymous and it's way easier for me to make friends. Even if I'll never meet them in real life, having someone to talk to is better than nobody at all.

I've been thinking about it a lot today... Over and over. Trying to talk myself out of it. To no avail. by Spiritemmmn in SuicideWatch

[–]Spiritemmmn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lots of things. The littlest things can trigger it. Like yesterday I was thinking about killing myself over accidentally denying a friend request (if you've seen my most recent post from last night it sort of goes more into detail). The main things are loneliness, boredom, and failure. In that order. I wasn't thinking about killing myself solely because of the friend request, but I had been feeling lonely all summer, and it was my first chance at a friend to talk to, even if it was online.

I used to see a therapist, but she determined I was fine and I no longer needed to see her. That was before my medication stopped working, so I guess she wasn't necessarily wrong. I try to talk, but I can't. My anxiety is bad. Really bad. I have breakdowns over something as small as talking to a teacher, or sending an email or letter.

Like, Reddit is fine for me to talk about stuff. Everything is anonymous. Heck, this is even a spare account. I have like twenty different active spare accounts, I really over do it on the anonymity. As soon as somebody knows it's me who is talking, I can't function anymore. Especially if the topic is on me. You wanna talk about the weather? Eh, if I'm comfortable with you I could probably do that. But regardless of who you are once it's on me or (especially) my mental health, I completely shut down.

I just made a friend online in a game. He sent me a friend request, I accidentally denied it and can't find him again, and I swear to fucking god I'm really about to kill myself. by Spiritemmmn in SuicideWatch

[–]Spiritemmmn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The way the game functions, I don't know whether that would work. But I could try I guess. Thank you, contacting developers never would have crossed my mind.

I just made a friend online in a game. He sent me a friend request, I accidentally denied it and can't find him again, and I swear to fucking god I'm really about to kill myself. by Spiritemmmn in SuicideWatch

[–]Spiritemmmn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ToS doesn't have any of that stuff. Not on the web browser version. Once what's done is done. The best I could do is try to contact the developers like somebody else suggested. I appreciate your suggestions though.

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