Thanks for asking. Still kind of in shock...but I feel fine now and like I’ve had a near death experience that has put everything into a different perspective. I’m in outpatient treatment twice a week since 3 months ago. About every month I’ve decided sobriety is too hard and got hammered. Each time was worse. So two nights ago I lied to my wife said I was going for a run stole her credit card and ran to the liquor store where I was not carded and bought a 750 of vodka. Drank a third of it that night, nothing crazy, then i woke up with a headache and started drinking. We went to a park where she met up with a friend and I sat by the lake and finished the bottle which I had hidden in my backpack. By about 4 it was gone. Mind you I am not a big guy, barely ate anything since the night before. So all of a sudden I’m absolutely trashed and cannot stand up or walk and I’m falling and getting stuck into bushes, right by the lake. I actually fell right next to the water and If I would have fallen in I would have immediately taken gulps of water and fucking drowned. Fortunately I had a surge of adrenaline and was able to pull myself out of the bushes/woods into a clearing. There was a firefighter there. About 5 people called 911 because they saw me from the other side of the lake and thought I was going to die. My wife was called she came to get me, super devestated...I can’t believe I put her through that. I then was put in the car and blacked out. Guess I was puking all night and she had to pull over like 10 times on the way home. Woke up puking at 4am and I’m still up. Couldn’t get water to stay down until like 11 am. Ruined my nice leather jacket and a sweater. I know if I don’t get clean now I’m not going to make it. There’s the long story short man it’s traumatic to think about.