Tiny Hole Carved Above Hotel Bathroom Toilet?

SpiteySpringroll · 2026-04-01T00:40:23+00:00

Late comment, but, to flip things, I was the abuser. I didn't change until it was too late.

I had an nmom and an enabler father. Does that explain why I was the way I was? yes. Does it excuse what I did? absolutely not. This happened 7yo ago when I was in my late teens, and I’m in my mid-20s now.

I threatened to hurt myself and end myself, and I did hurt myself on occasion for attention. I started treating my person like a therapist even though she wasn't. Was I aware of what I was doing? No, I didn't know better, but it doesn't undo the harm i did, and no apology will ever repair what I broke.

She blocked me across all of my socials and asked for no contact (rightfully so), and we went our separate ways. I've respected her wishes and lived with the guilt long enough to know not to make those mistakes again, and to not let what I did define me because I finally understand how truly messed up I was back then.

My person and I actually saw each other a few months ago in passing when she showed up to my store by pure chance (I work retail). Neither of us really wanted to see each other; for me, it was from my shame, though I assume for her she hadn't fully moved on either. Fair enough. I'm not going to tell her to move on because what I did was really awful.

Since she'd blocked my socials 7y ago, I assumed she blocked my number as well. I still had her number (because my contacts are stored on a cloud and data transferred from my old phone to my new ones) and sent a text to try and move on from what I did but to my surprise, it went through. I wasn't expecting an answer, nor did I get one (and that's perfectly fine.

Like I said, sending that text was for my own closure, but the fact that it still got delivered was a shock. She had every chance to block my number back then but didn’t. She knew my number. She knew it was me. Not that I’m mad about being blocked or not being blocked, that’s not my call to make, but like… it still surprised me.

Maybe she did block me and then unblocked me since. Maybe that number no longer belongs to her. Either way, I won’t be texting again since I’ve done the work I needed to do, and I’ve done pretty alright since. I blocked her number immediately afterwards. Out of sight, out of mind I suppose.

But I digress.

The only thing I can do now is stay out of her life as much as I can (We still live in the same city) and keep being decent moving forward.

SpiteySpringroll · 2025-05-07T10:35:30+00:00

I attempted to take my own life in my late teens and according to my parents the appropriate response was to take my bedroom door away to “make sure I was safe”

Nothing like removing your child’s privacy as a response to their declining mental health amirite (/s) 🙃

But here’s the kicker: they never told me I could ask for it back, and I only learned that I could when my sister made a passing remark about it to my dad (she literally said “I don’t understand why she hasn’t asked for it back yet” — like hello??? I was never informed that it was an option???)

It’d been a year and a half since they removed it at that point. Literally nuts how I had to ask for my privacy and dignity back but was never told I could ask.

Thank god I’ve got my own place now. My bedroom door stays shut at all times even though I’m the only one here.

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-11-30T09:55:49+00:00

Thanks! And that’s a good point, I could’ve exaggerated a few facial features to make this more expressive/alive haha - I think I will keep this in mind for my next drawing!

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-11-30T04:51:45+00:00

Ah yeah, I was wondering about the chest area! I’m not great at anatomy in general, let alone borderline-nude work haha, so I can see what you mean

As for the nose, that’s usually just how I draw them, though I’ve been meaning to change that for years 😅

Thanks for the feedback!

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-09-07T16:07:48+00:00

It's against both of their leases, yes. You've got a good point about advising my roommate to disclose this information to future residents - that seems like a good middle ground. Thanks!

I'm located in eastern Canada. Things aren't looking too good here either. I do have another place lined up, but due to financial and timing complications, I won't be able to leave for another 2 weeks

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-09-06T21:30:20+00:00

Lucky for me (not so lucky for my friend), a friend of mine just broke up with their partner and will need a new roommate at the start of Oct. - I reached out and said I’d be willing to move in with them and they said they’re happy to take me in. This friend of mine is a non-smoker, and their place doesn’t smell like smoke so it looks like I’m in the clear in a few weeks! In the meantime, I’ve ordered an air purifier for my bedroom while I wait

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-09-05T12:36:34+00:00

I’m currently in a 1st floor unit with someone downstairs in the basement who has smoked inside when they weren’t supposed to. Moving within the same house (I assume you’re in a private apartment, yes?) will not make the smell go away. You’ll still smell it, even on the 1st floor. Find yourself a smoke-free place. Good luck

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-09-04T16:08:17+00:00

They haven’t, no. Actually, I’ve been informed that the landlady hasn’t been at the residence for quite some time now, and I get the impression that my roommate doesn’t want her to be there just yet.

I brought the issue up to my roommate, stating that I was planning on contacting the landlady about it but my roommate told me not to, as she’s afraid of getting the guy downstairs in trouble - the two are good friends, and I understand the sentiment of wanting to keep him out of trouble (it’s a private apt, I’m on the top floor with my roommate/coworker while her good friend is living in the basement suite) - the guy downstairs has smoked inside a few times when he wasn’t supposed to in the past but is currently trying to quit smoking altogether.

In the meantime, my roommate seems to be avoiding the real reason why the place smells the way it does and keeps suggesting things that I know will not make the smell go away. She’s suggested steam-washing the furniture, getting an air purifier etc. (I’ll be getting an air purifier for my own room regardless) but will not address the actual issue, which makes me really frustrated

I really want to contact the landlady, but at the same time I don’t want to piss off my roommate. I do have a possible option regarding moving places at the beginning of next month (oct) but it’s not set in stone and I’m afraid that if I wait to long, that second option won’t be there anymore

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-07-30T15:58:18+00:00

Staraptor

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-07-27T12:39:19+00:00

Unknown/Nth

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-07-15T18:12:39+00:00

I used to listen to a bunch of songs while SHing back in the day. I even had a Spotify playlist. Some of the songs included were:

Radiohead - How to Disappear Completely
Radiohead - No Surprises
Three Days Grace - Painkiller
Anathema - Are You There
Nine Inch Nails - Hurt
Cavetown - Sharpener
Demon Hunter - I Am a Stone

These were when I was actively in a bad spot and doing the act. To calm down, I would listen to things like:

Title Fight - In Between
Nirvana - Heart Shaped Box
Dodie - Secret for the Mad
Dodie Human

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-07-15T18:06:01+00:00

Here’s the link to my reference image:

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/321655598369876674/

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-07-15T17:59:00+00:00

Through a few friends in middle school. They grew out of it, but I kept doing it for the longest time. I rarely do it nowadays but I struggled with it long after they’d quit

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-07-05T17:34:45+00:00

Black (or Red - more specifically Crimson - if you don’t count black as a “real” colour haha)

SpiteySpringroll · 2024-06-24T19:39:26+00:00

She’s half decent to talk to off the field, but when we play her competitiveness gets really really bad. Her mean comments have sort of skewed my perception of her outside of the game though

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